-=beE-LEe=-'z ANThOlOgY!
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Honest, empty, dark, nothing, intrusion, ostracism, banishment, insanity, love, hate, ebony, night, infinite, trust, lies.
A
plank of wood is hard
But,
I’m indestructible
A
pillow may be soft
But,
im insubstantial
Every
step I walk is lost time
Every
breath I respire is nowhere you would find
Every
time I close my eyes ebony is all around
Everytime
I open them I’m falling to the ground
Chorus
Fear
becomes me everyday
And
everytime I look the supplementary way
Its
everywhere I go
In
everything I do
Fear
is everything there is
Except
the emptiness to loose
Verse
Inept
is my head
While
awareness is my soul
And
everything I dread
Evaporates
into a hole
Repeat
chorus x1
(Except
the emptiness to loose)
Sometimes,
I chase your shoes
So
im everlastingly with you
And
if im feeling lost, your eyes lead me up
And
when I speak to you
Im about to erupt
Everybody makes mistakes
What do you call a friend, who lies to your face?
Do you get over it?
Do you wonder how the friendship started?
When a fight or argument occurs
What is the first thing that comes to mind?
Do you get over it…?
Or do you wonder how it started
Everybody wants to say its ok
But they really mean is that is what they want
You try to be nice and pretend everything’s all right
But on the inside you know your heart is soaking up the looks she gives you
The way she speaks to you
Your heart is like a sponge that is absorbing all her actions…her thoughts
That’s not cleaning up mess…
You have to cleanse your conscious don’t be obnoxious
Its OK everybody does it
People make mistakes
People make accusations when they’re only guilty themselves
But what they don’t know, is as they blame there are suffering themselves
Its called trust…
Everybody wants to say its ok
But they really mean is that is what they want
You try to be nice and pretend everything’s all right
But on the inside you know your heart is soaking up the looks she gives you
The way she speaks to you
It’s soakin up the way she speaks to you
It’s soakin up the way she speaks to you
Everybody makes mistakes....
I hate you
I hate you
With a passion
When I say I hate you
It’s more than an expression
I hate it when you saw me
Your words washed down like rain
You were so selfish
It fuckin drives me insane
*Chorus
The moment you left
Was without my awareness
When I found out, you captivated my hatred
It’s taken me a while to finally emancipate my head
I hear that word
It starts with ‘d’
My sight goes black
And with you
I have no memories
Selflish you are don’t try to deny
Don’t say you love me
It’s clearly a lie
Repeat *chorus
My life was bland
Things got so bad
And you didn’t drop by to give a helping hand
Its sounds so sad
I guess it’s why I hate you.
Dad.
nightmare
I am what I appear to be like, pity
it’s my life-pity it’s my strife
Findings reasons to be more hateful, be
more painful, less delightful
No
exclusions in my concerns and in my turns and with my name
Less intrusion in all of my space, in
all of my way, in all of my shame
Don’t be nasty if I continue to waste
and discriminate all in the favour of hate
Just accept the fact that I am alone
growing more strong when I am on my own
CHORUS
As I’m flipping back through time, in
my head of memories
I’m seeing different moods in
different categories
I can’t even maintain, my self esteem
Watch me quiver in my sleep and I wake
up with a scream
it’s a Nightmare
And its great that I can find what
I’m looking for and all it takes is me
That I can get up of my knees begging
pleads begging please
I just want a bit of love from someone
other than no one other than myself
I can handle a few drops of my blood,
cutting my arm, cutting my arm
But when I’m confronted death to
myself death to others death in my own bed
I am trying hard to start praying, dig
my grave in, bury my heart and my soul
CHORUS
As I’m flipping back through time, in
my head of memories
I’m seeing different moods in
different categories
I can’t even maintain, my self esteem
Watch me quiver in my sleep and I wake
up with a scream
it’s a Nightmare
My friends are never there for me,
laughing at me, thinking I’’m laughing as well
Its not like they ever stop to ask me,
stop to question, am I feeling all right
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep myself
awake all through the night
And when I’m happy it’s usually
because I’m so tired, I’m not even awake
When my mother stops to fight with me,
to make me feel like I’ve got nothing
Just to keep myself from putting me
out, killing myself displaying my head on a shelf
I
feel so devoted to you
I
yearn for your love
I
yearn for your attention
I
want to hypnotize your gaze
And
keep you close to me
For
all eternity
Can
I?
Touch
your skin
Can
I?
Penetrate
your lips with mine
Can
I?
Run
my fingers through your hair
It’s
too much to see you everyday
It
hurts when your eyes pierce into mine
It
sends shivers down my spine
This one never got named...or finished.
Turning mad
What could possibly take the feeling
And give me, more reasons to die
I didn’t see it coming
It broke my heart into millions
But in away it made me think
I wasted a plan so brilliant
*Chorus
Why couldn’t I
Grow some strength
I guess that I
Measured to the length
Of scooping so low
It made me so sad
That I was looping my moods
Into what turned me mad, im turning mad
I slept through
The whole night
And the present day right after that
I guess that I, couldn’t give a crap
If I went somewhere far
I wonder if he’d notice, I wonder if he’d care
If I could wish upon a star
Fuck that bullshit
I wouldn’t dare
Repeat chorus
WOEFUL Misery (this is a poem)
Limbless
and struggling like a worm
You
have blindly excavated your way through Earths crusted labyrinth
Fictitiously
leading your body towards your dreams thinking you will be endured to blissful
paradise
This
is to escape from reality, how human kind has yet devoured hell for all its
worth and repositioned it above the grounds where our home lies
***
The black cats hungry yet hopeful eyes leads us further away from serenity where we are in surroundings of captivity, pessimism, constant cantankerous and instant sanity so she can feed amongst her fellow cats
***
The
pleasure belongs only to those who malign
The
malignant cowards who roam our surface vandalising, originating from the kind
exposure we once used to survive with, it’s now turning us sour
Our
trees are falling, friends are dying, children crying, our wind producing
tornados while a clouds form typhoons
We
need to sit and listen while our soul flips back to the achievement of a
meaningful smile, we let go of the fire burning our bleeding hearts
Lets all try to remember the happiness and forget the woeful misery.
Unfortunate Loss
Tis…Unfortunate
that one may loose
A weary eyelid, sliding down
Not but
everything they may abuse
A smile, a weep, a yell to a frown
You
can only tolerate their critical remarks
As
we are so despondent to living
Some
even drown in flooded dark
Because
most are so incapable of giving
In
greater inept of emancipating there heads
To
inspire one by selfless leaning
Scared
of gratitude, rapidly they fled
To all but interpret a noble meaning
Shed
a tear and attention you’re seeking
Slightly
laugh and foolish you be
A
blank expression and quiet tho your sleeping
Yet
adolescence declines to see
Alone
and dying, happiness costs
This is our unfortunate loss
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