POETRY --
WRITTEN BY BILLIE-LEE
True
love
I want to hold you
in my arms
I
want to hold you all night long
Feel
your arms around me
A
grip so gentle and strong
I
want to run my fingers through your hair
And
have you run yours through mine
Everyday
I learn from you
Your
charms and talents shine
You
have never acted to me in a manner I disliked
And
knowing I will see you soon fills my heart up with excite
I
wish we could be together
I
really fucking do
I
have never in my life met someone as beautiful as you
You
make my skin tingle, and my whole body shakes
Yet
I know we can’t be together, and that makes my heart brake
I
love you more then anyone I have ever loved before
But
you will never feel the same way
I
have been stripped from all my hope, right down to the core
No
matter how long I have to wait, you will always be the one that I meaningfully
adore
Un-fatal
death
Sand
in her eyes, she cant see
Salty
water in her throat she can’t breathe
She’s
moving her limbs around not getting anywhere
Struggling
all around but the people near don’t seem to care
She’s
floating further away from everything
But
that’s what she wanted
Her
life was so disgusting
And
her world so haunted
No
one understood her, she doesn’t know why
But
there’s one thing she wanted to do before she died
It
was to fly…so high
She
jumped off the pia
To
her watery grave below
Her
body was trembling of fear
But
she no longer wanted to grow
She
sank below the water top while it slowly turned to black
She
had seconds thoughts of dying but it was too late to go back
Her
eyes rolled into her head and her stomach was pumped of breath
She
couldn’t breathe and that caned of pain
She
waited for her un-fatal death
Dad
I
stare at the picture of my dad, hanging on the wall
I
push him down stairs and watch him fall
My
dad dies once and then again
I
stare and laugh seeing my dad in so much pain
I’m
glad to know he could hurt at all
As I stare at the picture of my
dad…hanging on the wall
Good
luck
I
prayed so many times that good luck would come my way
Every
single night and every fucking day
My
life is stuck on pension, bills, single mother hooked on pills
My
dad left before I was born he says he’s not ready for kids
But
no normal happy motherfucker could guess what he next did
Went
out and found a chick had more children of his or her own
Now
it wasn’t till a later time he decided to pick up the phone
Ring
me up and wish my happy birthday for seven fuckin years without him I had
grown
Did
he think I knew who it was? No, not a single fuckin thing about him I had ever
known
The
man I had been living with, the one I called my dad
I
didn’t even share his blood
My
life went bad to sad
I
have now been fighting with my family for years
Every
minute of the day
I
must be developing depression I can’t contain my tears
No
one senses my pain
Why
I continue living? I don’t know why
I
can’t stand anyone; I feel I need to die
I
really want to know why so many times I have begged
Nothing
good has helped us out
I’m
failing everything repeating in my head
Don’t
tell me what its all about
I
already fuckin know
The
world is out to get us and that’s all I have been shown
So
if that’s the kind of shit I receive
Then
that’s what I BELIEVE!!