Angelofminepart4

Angel of Mine- part 4

I look away and she comes and sits next to me. She takes off my wet jacket and throws it on the sofa. This isn�t the reason I had imagined her taking my clothes off before but it would do�she took off my tee-shirt and went to the bathroom. She returned with my fluffy towel and wrapped it around my shoulders. I dry myself and then she puts the pink sweater over my head. When I pull it on, her face is inches from mine. I can hear her breath coming faster and her eyes are scanning my face. I recognise that look. Longing�wanting, needing. I lean forward and our lips meet. It�s just as sweet as I�ve ever imagined it would be, if not better. She tastes so good and for a moment I can�t believe this is happening. She moves closer to me and slips her tongue into my mouth, I must be dreaming this�a few hours ago she was devastated when I told her how I felt, now here she was, exploring my mouth with her tongue.

�Monica�I�m�sorry�.I�ll explain to�you �later�� she gasped. I nod and run my fingers through her soft wet hair. She does the same to me and our first kiss becomes more passionate. I take her hand and lead her onto the sofa. We sit and she kisses me again. I lean on her, pushing her back until she�s lying beneath me. I kiss her and then gently bite on her bottom lip. She sighs and does the same to me, holding my face between her hands as she looks up and nibbles on my lip. She looks so beautiful underneath me, her chest rising and falling heavily. I trace her flat stomach with my finger and her eyes are wide and happy. I cry as I remember her face this afternoon. She sits up and wraps me in a warm embrace. �What�s wrong?� she soothes, stroking my cheek. I tell her and she rests her head on my shoulder, She turns around until she has her back to me and leans against my front. I put one arm around her small waist and I play with her hair with my other hand as she talks.

� When you told me that you were in love with me this afternoon�I�It brought up a lot of bad memories for me. I know what it�s like to be in love with your best friend. I�ve done it before and it ended really badly. I never wanted to feel that, physical and emotional pain ever again, and when you said that today, I..I freaked out�.It brought up some of my past I had tried to forget�.�

I kiss the top of her head and pull her closer to me. �I�m sorry�do you want to talk about it?� I can feel her pain and feel guilty for bringing it all back up, whoever caused it must have hurt her bad.

She nods and snuggles closer to me.

� I was 21 when I met Brian. He was so sweet and funny, he took me bowling and to the movies and we got on really well. We became good friends�we didn�t date, we were too close to have a sexual relationship so we remained as best friends. I dated other guys and he dated women, but I never felt happy with anyone else. In bed my mind always drifted back to Brian and his caring nature. He looked after me and after awhile I began to see him as more than a friend. Every morning, the first thing in my mind I saw was Brian. And he was the last thing I saw before I went to sleep.�

I smile. I know exactly what she means. I stroke the top of her head as she continues.

� Anyway, we stayed friends for 7 years, then one day he came up to me and said. �Dana, I love you�� just the same way you did. And I told him I loved him as a friend. I was afraid of spoiling our great relationship if I told him I was in Love with him. He did it anyway, my heart melted when I heard him say those words�we kissed and became a couple. We were happy for a few months but then he started coming home late, going out drinking with his friends. � She wipes tears from her eyes and clears her throat. She takes hold of my hand and continues.

�One night, he came home at 3 in the morning. I was in bed asleep and I woke when I heard the door slam. I heard him coming up the stairs and I switched the light on. He came in and�and��

� What Dana? � I soothe.

She is crying as she speaks. � He brought 2 of his friends home and they all, they�they�Monica, they all r�ra�raped me. Time after time after�.time. They just kept coming back for more, over and over again�.I was so scared�Brian was just watching�he..he..was letting them touch me and �Oh God! � She begins to sob.

I can tell she has never told anyone before. Tears roll down my cheeks as I reassure her she is safe. She is sobbing now, repeating the same thing .

� He just sat and watched�he just�sat and watched�.� I kiss her hair and she calms down until she is crying quietly. She has more to tell me, I can sense it.

� They left after about 4 hours�and I was in so much pain�Brian threatened he�d bring more round if I told anyone. I wouldn�t have dared tell anybody. But he brought more anyway. After the second time, I became pregnant. I was so scared�I didn�t know what to do. Brian wouldn�t let me leave the house so I couldn�t have an abortion. � She is talking more confidently now. She has strength in her voice that surprises me.

� One night when I made coffee, I drugged his. He fell asleep and I managed to get out. I was 7 months pregnant by then. It was too late to do anything. I moved into a woman and children shelter in Chicago and gave birth to my daughter�Hope. She was my hope, but I couldn�t bear to look at her without the terrible memories coming back, so I had to give her up for adoption. I haven�t seen her since the night they took her from my arms�� She fiddles with my fingers as she speaks, rubbing them and holding them. I admire her strength.

� That was 8 years ago and I still find it hard to trust people. You are the only person I have trusted since then and I�m so glad you are my best friend. I can trust women more than men�I know what men are capable of�. I dunno�men just frighten me so much whereas with you I feel safe and loved�genuinely loved�I was afraid to let myself fall for you but I couldn�t help it�� she turns round and kisses my lips again. Her lips feel so soft and I can taste her salty tears. I kiss her eyes and take away her tears. My heart feels like it�s about to burst�I am filled with everlasting love for this beautiful woman in my arms�I�ll never let her feel pain like that again. And as we lie entwined, I can sense this angel in my arms feels the same way too.