If Our Worlds Collided

By Gina-chan
 
I didn't know him.
How could I?
He was much older than me
And people like him
Just don't associate with the "younger" students.

I went out of my way to see him. 
His handsome looks
Charming smile
Made it worth the while.

I thought to myself
Why was I doing this?
So I tried to push him
Out of my mind.

But every time I saw him
Every time he flashed
That magical grin my way
I couldn't help but liking him again.

I knew all the reasons I shouldn't. 
I tried to think about other guys...
But my thoughts always drifted back to him.

He was way out of my league.
He had a girlfriend.
He was a senior.
I liked someone else, too. 

But I couldn't help but wonder
What would it be like
If our worlds collided?

If, by some twist of fate
We actually got together
And I could hold him in my arms
Like I always dreamed.

I know it's not possible
Our worlds are so far apart
We are so far apart
We haven't even met.

Can he tell?
When he looks my way?
And I gaze back
With hate
Sadness
Wanting

My depressed expression
Hides the happiness 
Inside 
When I see him.

He's leaving soon...
And he doesn't even know
My feelings for him.

Do I have any feelings anymore?
Or is what I'm going through just a phase?
Do I have any feelings for this guy?
Or am I just trying to fill this empty space in my heart?

Not that you're helping my heart heal.
In fact, you just might rip it out.
And you don't even know me. 

I can't believe
That I believed that I wished you could see.
How can you see?
Our worlds are miles apart.
So close, and yet so far.

So what would happen
If our worlds collided?
And I could actually meet
This guy I've wanted for so long?