I have become a slave to my own dreams
I cant lay down and just sleep
I lay down and listen to the voices that creep.
How can you describe me?
when im so heavily medicated?
my actions will forever be debated.
I cant even see reality straight
you touch me and I see it as act of hate.
If I die
let it be in a pool of my own blood.
so that my life is the last thing I have ahold of.
My last seconds will be spent looking into your eyes
trying to show the pain that I have inside.
If I die let it be for a reason
Other then to just stop breathing.
I lived my life with god staring down
But when I cried for him
I never felt he was around.
If im dead
Let them remember my name and the things I have done.
Even if I am dead and gone.
This is so hard
When trying to show feeling
When I keep them in a jar
That I label my eternal scar.
I want to rise through the clouds
As you read what I was about.
I never felt like you understood me while I was alive
Meant to fail
I didn�t have the will to survive.
I kept going until my body gave out
I didn�t want to die
But with out my heart I couldn�t live without.
My life of misery ended when my heart stop beating
I lost all hope when I found out why girl was cheating
I got dumped
Forever down
Her actions leaving me stumped.
You will forever blame yourself for my death
Because you are the one who made me take my last breath.
Aron Joe Gilb
Copyright �2004 Aron Joe Gilb