Feelings of confusion, not knowing which way to choose.
Not wanting to stay, not having the courage to move.
Secrets kept inside, unable to get them out.
Feelings that need to go away, from an empty place ~ shout.
We enjoy forbidden feelings and desires we don’t ignore.
Imagination we build in our minds plays a great role.
Emptiness surrounds us, rivers of tears flowing,
We run from reality, to catch a rainbow, without knowing.
We are running out of time, years pass and fly.
We know it’s too late, sometimes we feel down and we cry.
But our hearts still beat, and we can do nothing but hope.
There’s no life without hope, so we have to live and cope.
Hurt, pain, happiness, sadness, laughter, tears and loneliness ;
Love, hate, guilt , thoughts, emptiness, peace, war and arguments ;
Dreams, reality, distance, fear, strength and weakness.
What are all these? Feelings, adjectives or words -- meaningless ?
My head is spinning, I’m confused and motionless ;
My hand is trembling not knowing what to type.
Difficult to explain what’s inside, I’m breathless, torn apart.
Can I ever believe and trust again? I think I lost this art.
No one understands me; I have my heart door closed.
Waiting for someone to have the keys to open.
Waiting the magic of love to knock my door and flow.
But will I ever recognize it? I forgot what love means long ago!
I sit before this screen wondering what's soul and heart talk ;
Ears never listen but hearts do, they touch and feel each others too ;
No hugs, no kisses, no looking in eyes nor shaking hand.
Yet amazing how feelings are strong, through storms they stand.
Sure, love can whisper in our ears with the wind.
Love can flow through oceans, seas and lakes ;
Across countries, no matter the hills and mountains ;
Nothing can stop it, till we reject and push it
Love comes to us waiting to be recognized, accepted and comforted .
Love speaks to us in the sunset and at the beginning of each day.
Love is in a child’s smile and old couple holding hands .
Love is everywhere if you open your eyes to see it and never push it away .
~~ Gihan ~~ 2/11/1999
