IF I Really Cared

• If I really cared

• I'd look in your eyes when you talk to me;

• instead of looking at empty walls in the room to avoid looking at you

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• If I really cared.

  I'd think about what you are saying ;

  rather then what I am going to say next .

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• If I really cared.

• I'd have understood what you wanted to say;

• from your eyes ,I could even hear your soul .

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• If I really cared..

• I'd hear your feelings as well as your words;

• and even your heart beats, I would have heard .

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• If I really cared..

• I'd listen without defending;

• I'll agree with you without pretending .

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• If I really cared..

• I'd hear you without deciding whether you're right or wrong;

• I'll follow your way even if I'm not convinced;

• no need to show you I'm strong.

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• If I really cared..

• I'd ask you "WHY" with love ;

• Not just "HOW"  "WHEN" and "WHERE" in an aggressive way.

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• If I really cared..

• I'd allow you to know me;

• I'd tell you my hopes, my dreams, my hurts.

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• If I really cared..

• I would have tried to change you ;

• and never give up or lose hope.

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•  If I really cared..

• I would have poured tears of hurts and regrets for you ;

• but my eyes are dry no more tears in them ;

• and even if I have some left ,

• I have no intention to lose them for you.

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• If I really cared..

• I'd laugh with you, cuddle you

• I'd create time to  listen to your dreams because they are mine too.

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• If I really cared..

• I'd have gladly walked miles

• and climbed walls to reach you .

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•  If I really cared..

• I 'd be your baby your woman your everything

• I'll jump on your laps wanting you to touch my hair and lips .

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 If I really cared..

I wait all night for you to come home ;

just to tell me "I MISS U AND LOVE U BABE".

If I really cared..

I wouldn't have to act and do so much efforts ;

Oh!!! if I cared, it would be much easier to live my life with you.

but simply I don't care and you don't want to believe this !

You still think that I'm dreaming of changing you

But NO you are wrong ,it's over.

" DON'T CHANGE "

and if you ever do ,I still don't care and won't care for u .

no time can ever mend the broken pieces .

no time can ever heal my broken heart .

If my life was a book I would have torn this part.

It's too late it's the end not the start .

~~~~~ Gihan ~~~~31/10/1999