Goodbye

I don't want to think twice;

Because if I do, I won't go out of your life and leave you ;

I want just to go without hurt or pain ;

I want to shut this door and never open it again .

I don't want to think twice;

I just want to do what I feel is wise;

I want to do what's best for you and I ;

Even though it's not true and it's a lie .

I knew there was something wrong;

But I've been trying to ignore it for so long ;

I don't want to look back and regret our love;

I don't want to feel weak ,it needs strength from above .

I'll always remember when you stayed all night to love me;

And at dawn you hated to leave me ;

With you I learned how to laugh ,love and cry;

I think I must learn too, how to say "Goodbye" .

I know it will be difficult for me to say;

We never planned it to be this way;

I'll never belong to you and you'll never belong to me;

So I'll let everything go the way it should be .

I'll always remember the time we shared;

I'll always remember your comfort and care;

I'll always remember the loving names you called me;

Your one kind sense of humor that lifted me .

How can I forget all these memories and hide ?

They will always live with me deep down inside;

How can I forget your touches , so real ?

That made me once tremble as if you were near .

I'm ashamed from the tears I have in my eyes;

It's very plain for you to see them now ;

I want to hide them , but what can I do?

Anyway one day we were one , no difference between me and you .

My hands are trembling now, feeling yours touching mine ;

Without saying one more single word;

The very depth of my soul can be heard;

Can you feel how I'm torn from inside ???

So lets not call it a "Goodbye ";

It won't be complete parting between you and I;

We'll feel peace thinking about each other;

And about our beautiful love which will never die .

I'll take time to get on my feet again ,but I'll do my best and try ;

I might even smile one day, thinking of our beautiful memories ;

I might even think it was a dream ,or a romantic book I read ;

A book I'll open everyday and a dream which will come to me whenever I'm alone in bed .

If you know how much I love you;

you'll know why I'm saying" Goodbye ".

We are both torn between our real lives ;

And I know It's too much for you to deal with it and try .

I love you too much to make your heart tired;

I want to hold this kind warm heart in the palm of my hands;

And never make it feel pain more then it can stand;

Your heart beatings means life to me ,I want to put it in a safe place;

I won't permit anyone to hurt or touch it in any case .

I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU

Gihan~~~~30/9/1999