Free from your love
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I gathered deep in my heart;
A bouquet of love for you;
I watered and nourished it everyday;
I wanted it to grow ,to help me in my way through .
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This bouquet of love is in my heart alone;
But it was once in your heart too;
But with your neglect you made it dry ;
And you didn't even care to try .
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Can't you hear my heart extra beat?
Can't you feel I'm feeling blue ?
Can't you hear my words unspoken ?
Can't you know my heart is broken ?
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I called you tenderly in the nights;
Wishing that wind bring my voice to you;
But your ears were deaf;
Not wanting to hear how much I miss you .
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I offered my hands to you in the space;
I longed for you to hold them ,but you couldn't reach ;
I offered you my heart and soul;
And I was willing to offer you more .
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Was I too tender and caring ?
Or were you too harsh and bold !
Was my love so real that it scared you?
And made you run and be so cold!
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I'll never regret the tender passion I had once inside of me;
I'll never regret how much I cared for your needs;
But I'll regret only that I fell so fast;
Though I knew from the beginning that it won't last .
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I look from my window and silence surrounds me;
I gaze at the sea and the dry part of the land;
I see the coolness of this blue water;
As the waves rush on the dry sand .
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I take a deep breath watching this beautiful view .
Wanting to do the same ,and wash my heart from loving you .
I put some soft music to break the silence around me
I surrender to the music and its beautiful melody .
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A tear gently fall on my cheeks;
I walk slowly to bed , trying to find some sleep;
My head caresses my pillow and again I think of you;
And I recall your sensuous touches I once felt with you.
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But I promise myself that tomorrow will be a new day;
I won't follow anymore your foot prints;
I'll be free from loving you, whatever it takes;
And I'll have to admit that loving you was a mistake .
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~~~Gihan ~~~ 10/10/1999
