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Letter to the Editor - GAIN transgender newsletter

� September 7, 2000

Dear Penni:

A recent (9/30/00, presumably meant to read 8/30/00) GAIN newsletter with the article, "Perspective: Room for All Kinds of Womyn, Re-posted from http://www.Lesbianation.com: Room for All Kinds of Womyn By: Dana Rivers" contained the following:

"And besides, I am a womyn. A womyn-born-womyn. I also happen to be a trans-womyn, one who lost her job as a California high school teacher when I came out .. I belong among other womyn as surely as I need to sit down to pee."

I'm confused. First, Ms. Rivers states that she was BORN a woman, but immediately thereafter indicates that sitting down to pee is one of the bellwethers of gender identification. As we know, Ms. Rivers was born with a penis.

I have been a fulltime T-girl for four years, on hormones for nearly six. I am a woman. Whether I am pre-op or post-op should be irrelevant to my claim of gender authenticity.

That our very leaders continue to imply the necessity of surgical vaginas to validate legitimacy is perhaps our greatest deterrent to acceptance by the broader culture. How may we expect Ma & Pa Kettle to accept the NON-op woman if our own warrior frontlines tell them only those who have undergone medical manipulation are the genuine article? And forget the M2Fs � what about the poor F2Ms, for whom genital reconstruction remains somewhere in the Dark Ages? Are all F2Ms frauds?

After much study, Johns Hopkins stopped performing genital reconstruction surgery. Why? There must be a reason, and those reasons must matter. But our community continues to ignore such information, in a mad dash to conform to a superficial and unrealistic image of "woman" that mama can accept.

In my cursory investigation I have become aware of innumerable anatomical differences between an inverted penis and a genetic vagina (no wall lining, no lubrication, infinitely different nerve and muscle structure, no internal "plumbing"). It comes as no surprise that several medical practitioners are willing to accommodate a patient's request for such a superficial and unacceptable medical compromise, at a cost of $15-25,000 per (M2F) operation.

But the sooner we as a community can move beyond mandatory genital reconstruction (dare I say "mutilation?") as the primary arbiter of gender authenticity, the faster we can educate the broader populace toward understanding and acceptance, and the sooner we can love ourselves BECAUSE of our differences, not in spite of them.

We undermine our efforts when our leaders imply we M2Fs must sit down to pee in order to be recognized.

- Kelli McAllister
[email protected]

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Michelle Steiner's response to my original letter, and my response to Michelle

� September 9, 2000

LETTER TO THE EDITOR

Dear Penni,

This is a letter to the editor in response to Kelli McAllister's letter to the editor...

"First, Ms. Rivers states that she was BORN a woman, but immediately thereafter indicates that sitting down to pee is one of the bellwethers of gender identification. As we know, Ms. Rivers was born with a penis."

First of all, whether one was born with a penis does not determine whether one is a woman.

Secondly, Dana did not say or "indicate" that sitting down to pee is a bellwether [sic] of gender identification.

"I have been a fulltime T-girl for four years, on hormones for nearly six. I am a woman. Whether I am pre-op or post-op should be irrelevant to my claim of gender authenticity."

And it is; nothing in Dana's essay indicated anything to the contrary.

"That our very leaders continue to imply the necessity of surgical vaginas to validate legitimacy is perhaps our greatest deterrent to acceptance by the broader culture."

We have no "leaders." Further, nothing that Dana wrote implies any such necessity.

"After much study, Johns Hopkins stopped performing genital reconstruction surgery. Why? There must be a reason, and those reasons must matter."

It is common knowledge that that study was grossly flawed, and was resigned to support one doctor's desire to stop SRS at Johns Hopkins. I am very surprised that Ms. McAllister was unaware of this--or was she?

"In my cursory investigation I have become aware of innumerable anatomical differences between an inverted penis and a genetic vagina (no wall lining, no lubrication, infinitely different nerve and muscle structure, no internal "plumbing")."

These differences (and not all of the above is correct, BTW) are entirely superficial.

"It comes as no surprise that several medical practitioners are willing to accommodate a patient's request for such a superficial and unacceptable medical compromise, at a cost of $15-25,000 per (M2F) operation."

They are not superficial, nor are they unacceptable, except to people like Ms. McAllister, who wouldn't have this surgery in any case.

"But the sooner we as a community can move beyond mandatory genital reconstruction (dare I say "mutilation?")"

She may dare say "mutilation," but she would be wrong.

"We undermine our efforts when our leaders imply we M2Fs must sit down to pee in order to be recognized"

We undermine our efforts when people like Ms. McAllister wrongfully misprepresent what other people say and deliberately put false spins on medical and historical facts.

I am sick and tired of people like Ms. McAllister attacking transsexuals in order to rationalize their own personal decisions not to seek SRS.

--Michelle Steiner

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Hi Michelle -

I just read your response to my letter in the current GAIN. You seem angry, maybe specifically at me, and I can't figure out why.

Let me answer you privately via email on some of the issues you raised, but let me preface by saying I'm not trying to convince you (or anybody) of anything. I've lived long enough to know that's completely pointless. You wanna have, or already have had SRS, fine. You wanna cut off your leg to satisfy a body dysmorphia, fine. Heck, you wanna kill yourself, fine. I absolutely won't interfere with your right to do whatever you want with your body, or your life. Believe me when I say I gave up trying to persuade anybody to do anything a long time ago.

But, quite simply, a lot of your response to my letter was incorrect. Specifically, when you say that Dana Rivers didn't imply that sitting down to pee was one way we recognize authentic women, I quote from her letter: "I belong among other womyn as surely as I need to sit down to pee." I agree with you, being born with a penis doesn't mean you're not a woman ... I'm living proof. But Dana Rivers is the one who used urinary ability to define gender authenticity in the context of the Michigan Womyn's Festival, not me.

You say we have no "leaders?" Of course we do ... Riki Anne Wilchins springs immediately to mind. Who else? Simple; look for whomever is on the dais at the next big gender conference. Certainly, SOMEBODY is in charge of these things. Certain names appear again and again in discussions of TG rights, and behind TG podiums. I myself was facilitator of the Ventura County, CA support group for more than two years, and proud to have served in that capacity. I wrote a monthly T column for the Ventura Co. GLCC newsletter for 18 months. Michelle, please don't claim our movement is a rudderless ship.

Specifically regarding Dana Rivers ... it's just my personal opinion, and I would never presume to undermine her potential to effect any significant progress for our movement, but I'm getting a little tired of her milking her 15 minutes of T victimization fame into a career move.

The Ts I REALLY respect are all my unfamous friends who don't pass, and will get their next paying job when hell freezes over. The ones who aren't paid to travel around the country inspiring the masses; some are sleeping in their cars or in shelters or wherever they can as I write this.

Indeed, though I pass very well, have two college degrees and a Mensa membership -- even I had to sleep on the floor of the office of my previous employer for most of this past year. Officially, I was homeless. When Dana, or any of the T pecking order (and we all know what THAT is: post-op/fulltime/pre-op/HRT/CD) indicates that standing to pee is how we "belong among other womyn" (and what's with her puerile spelling?), I must unavoidably take exception to such supercilious arrogance, and her perpetuation of a transgender caste system that should have been retired long ago.

Honest, Michelle, I am completely unaware of the Johns Hopkins study. I tried to find some information on why the study produced the results it did, but I couldn't, after searching every 'net engine at my disposal (including, of course, an exhaustive search on the Johns Hopkins site itself). I said as much in my letter ... why can't we find this information?

From your response: was the Hopkins study seriously flawed? I'm assuming you read the actual study, right? Your conclusion isn't based on hearsay or apocryphal internet wisdom (one step removed from smoke signals...)?

Please point me to where I can find this information ... not an interpretation or third-party conclusion of the study, but the study itself. I've been unsuccessful.

You indicate "not all of the above is correct" when you refer to my list of differences between an inverted penis and a genetic vagina. Which is incorrect? Do we post-ops have a vaginal lining? Auto-lubrication? Fallopian tubes? Operative sphincter muscles?

Were you aware the female vagina has one large nerve running from it straight up to the brain, and a male anatomy doesn't possess this nerve? (I can refer you to the medical source site for this anatomical information). Indeed, everything on my list was confirmed by Dr. Gary Alter, L.A.'s only SRS surgeon, when he appeared at a meeting I attended at the L.A. Gender Center two months ago.

Women have an extra rib. Women have an extra layer of epidermis. Women have completely different skeletons and fat distribution (the latter can be modestly and somewhat disappointingly affected with HRT, the former never can). Women, of course, have two Xs. From "Allure" magazine: women's teeth are more rounded, mens are straight. Michelle, the list is endless. You can believe all these differences are superficial. But put enough of these differences together, and eventually we should realize we Ts will NEVER become genetic women. Pinocchio was a cartoon; it doesn't happen in real life, much as I might fervently pray.

And Michelle, regardless of whether you think I'm a complete ass or not, or whether you think you're a complete genetic woman or not, or whether Dana Rivers is the Goddess herself or Satan's spawn, at least give me credit for researching as much as I could lay my hands on regarding anatomical differences. Trust me, all this was ... IS of critical importance to me in my own gender odyssey.

You say SRS is "not" unacceptable. I would never presume to debate you. I can tell you that I received five heartfelt responses endorsing my letter, including one referring to her two "Biber" girl friends who seem to disagree with their doctor's success statistics (I can forward if you'd like). Maybe people who disagree are just chicken to write directly to me, but I didn't receive any negative letters. None. Apparently there's a movement of people equally tired of the bullshit T caste system's perpetuation by the medical community and its apostles, that aren't receiving a hearing. Everytime they try to speak, they're drowned out by the roar of post-ops insisting it's a beautiful world.

Michelle, did you really conclude your letter by saying you're "sick and tired of people like Ms. McAllister attacking transsexuals in order to rationalize their own personal decisions not to seek SRS"? When did I attack trannies? Hell, Michelle, I AM one! What, now I'm gonna beat MYSELF up?!?!?

And I never said I was pre- or post-, or that my surgery wasn't pending or 20 years ago, or anything of the kind. I just addressed Dana Rivers' comments that she belonged among other "womyn" because she sat down to pee, and my revulsion at her sanctimony in the context of my struggling pre-op friends. Whether I have a penis or a surgically-constructed vagina is, frankly, none of your business, and you seriously miss the point of my letter by focusing on genitalia over intra-community acceptance of ALL of us (re. my letter: "the sooner we can love ourselves BECAUSE of our differences, not in spite of them.") That's "attacking" trannies? Holy mackerel ... What'd I say to make you so angry?

Sorry this was so long, but I'll assume you may have found it modestly entertaining, if only because you conclude I'm so irredeemably misguided? Michelle, I'm not one of "them," I'm one of "us." My bottom line point, both in my original letter and in this personal response to you: let's eradicate such divisive nomenclature altogether, and make it irrelevant which woman sits down to pee.

-- Kelli McAllister

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Dallas Denny's response to my original letter, and our ensuing email dialogue

� September 10, 2000

[Received from Dallas Denny ]

It's sad that more than 20 years after the fact, the fraudulent 1979 Meyer & Reter journal article (The infamous "Johns Hopkins study") continues to be cited as if it meant something (Letter to the Editor by Kelli McAllister, GAIN, 9/3/00).

The study in question, which was authored by Hopkins Gender Clinic director Jon Meyer and his secretary, Donna Reter, was published in The Archives of General Psychiatry, and purported to show "no objective improvement" in MTF transsexuals after sex reassignment surgery. The study, which has findings inconsistent with dozens of other outcome studies, was immediately and widely attacked as methodologically unsound and was eventually revealed to be fraudulent. It now appears that the authors' intent was political rather than scientific and the data were cooked (i.e., either made up or prefentially selected while ignoring data that did not support the authors' political agenda). Meyer publicized the findings widely and succeeded in his goal of getting the Hopkins clinic closed; however, this was absolutely a political closing and not a scientific one, as Ms. McAllister has implied.

Follow-up studies indicate high rates of satisfaction with SRS. Dissatisfaction, when it occurs, is generally because of poor surgical results and complications; there seem to be few regrets that the genitals have been transformed.

Thank you.

Dallas Denny

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Hi Dallas Denny -

Sorry I made you sad ("It's sad that more than 20 years after the fact, the fraudulent 1979 Meyer & Reter journal article continues to be cited as if it meant something").

I'm not trying to be a wiseass when I say I'd really like to know where I can find information on the Meyer & Reter article to which you refer, and its link to Johns Hopkins. I've searched everywhere, including an exhaustive search on the Hopkins site itself, to no avail. Nothing. All I know is, they supposedly performed SRS in the past. Now they don't. Seems like if the report was really found to be bogus, SRS operations should have resumed.

Also, where can I find empirical documentation on alternative SRS results, NOT from a biased source but from an objective and reputable third-party scientific methodology? I've never met anyone without an agenda ... no one really wants to discover the truth. But belive it or not, I'm the exception: I'm eager to research anything that can lead me to solid scientific answers regarding post-op results. I just don't wanna waste my time with any results earlier than five years after surgery (the "honeymoon"), nor from a subjective source.

I keep coming back to this question: Why hasn't a single large hospital or established medical institution (County USC, e.g) embraced this surgery? Have you known the medical profession traditionally to turn down an opportunity to make an extra buck or two?

For that matter, why does virtually no insurance company cover SRS costs, considering how it's supposed to be a vital treatment for transsexuals?

I think these are legitimate questions. It disappoints me that earnest dialogue is disallowed in the Temple of the T Demigods. Oh well ...

Since Penni chose to print a couple of responses to my letter, neither of which documented any source for their conclusions (sorry, my friend, you never mentioned a single specific study in your response ...), I'm thrust in the unfortunate position of whipping girl without an opportunity to defend my position.

I was considering the ramifications of this earlier today; anyone can run anything about anybody with complete impunity, and largely without fear of reprisal. Penni has said in the recent GAIN that she's not inclined to continue the debate, so whatever you and Michelle said is the last word. Period.

In case you're highly motivated, I thought you might like to read my private response to Michelle. And I promise, this will be MY last word on the subject, too. :)

-- Kelli McAllister

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{Email response from Dallas Denny}

Emotion rules in the treatment of transsexualism much more than does logic. The report was a ploy by psychiatrist Paul McHugh and clinic director Jon Meyer to close the clinic-- which was closed not because of the data but because of the publicity campaign McHugh and Meyer waged in close the clinic. Because the Hopkins clinic was the prototype upon which the other 40 plus U.S. clinics were based, they all went out of business within a year or so. Most just shut down; a couple privatized.

Here's the reference to the Meyer & Reter paper. It's not difficult to find. It's widely referenced:

Meyer, J.K., & Reter, D. (1979). Sex reassignment: Follow- up. Archives of General Psychiatry, 36(9), 1010-1015.

The Meyer & Reter study was immediately attacked as methodologically unsound. A good summary of the criticisms can be found in:

Blanchard, R., & Sheridan, P.M. (1990). Gender reorientation and psychosocial adjustment. In R. Blanchard & B.W. Steiner (Eds.), Clinical management of gender identity disorders in children and adults, 159-189. Washington, D.C.: American Psychiatric Press.

Blanchard & Sheridan also critique the study, some 10 years after its publication.

You might also check out:

Ogas, O. (1994, 9 March). Spare parts: New information reignites a controversy surrounding the Hopkins gender identity clinic. City Paper (Baltimore), 18(10), cover, 10-15.

which describes the conspiracy to close the Hopkins clinic (attached). Most likely Meyer (Donna Reter was his secretary and probably had little to do with anything except typing) and McHugh looked about until they found some data which supported their political aspirations to close the clinic; in other words, it appears the study was compiled post-hoc, although purporting not to be. No other explanation can come so close to explaining such a truly methodologically unsound study.

"Also, where can I find empirical documentation on alternative SRS results, NOT from a biased source but from an objective and reputable third-party scientific methodology? I've never met anyone without an agenda ... no one really wants to discover the truth. But belive it or not, I'm the exception: I'm eager to research anything that can lead me to solid scientific answers regarding post-op results. I just don't wanna waste my time with any results earlier than five years after surgery (the "honeymoon"), nor from a subjective source."

The literature is replete with outcome studies. If you can lay a hand on my Garland bibliography, it contains a complete list through 1994. Amazon.com has it, I think, for $30, but most university libraries should have it. It's called _Gender Dysphoria: A Guide to Research_. It lists perhaps several hundred outcome studies, almost all of which indicate the surgery is helpful. Some studies focus on patient satisfaction, others on more objective outcomes. The studies from the Netherlands are perhaps the best, for they tracked large numbers of transsexuals for some years. Blanchard et al.'s study of regrets is interesting, for they found that transsexuals are most likely to be unhappy not about having had the surgery, but about bad surgical results. Here are a few studies:

Blanchard, R., Steiner, B.W., Clemmensen, L.H., & Dickey, R. (1989). Prediction of regrets in postoperative transsexuals. Canadian Journal of Psychiatry, 34(1), 43-45.

Green R., & Fleming, D.T. (1990). Transsexual surgery follow- up: Status in the 1990s. In J. Bancroft, C.M. Davis, & D. Weinstein (Eds.), Annual Review of Sex Research. Society for the Scientific Study of Sex, P.O. Box 208, Mount Vernon, IA.

Kuiper, A., & Cohen-Kettenis, P. (1988). Sex reassignment surgery: A study of 141 Dutch transsexuals. Archives of Sexual Behavior, 17(5), 439-457.

Lindemalm, G., Korlin, D., & Uddenberg, N. (1986). Long-term follow-up of "sex change" in 13 male-to-female transsexuals. Archives of Sexual Behavior, 15(3), 187-210.

Lindemalm, G., Korlin, D., & Uddenberg, N. (1987). Prognostic factors vs. outcome in male-to-female transsexualism: A follow- up study of 13 cases. Acta Psychiatrica Scandinavica, 75(3),

Green, R. (1998). Conclusion to Transsexualism and sex reassignment: Reflections at 25 years. In D. Denny (Ed.), Current concepts in transgender identity, pp. 419-423. New York: Garland Publishing.

Taken as a whole, outcome studies overwhelmingly indicate subjective satisfaction in about 85% of patients; regrets usually happen to those who haven't followed the SOC. Someone (I'm not sure who-- Green & Fleming, listed above?) recently did a metanalysis of outcome studies; it would be worth reading.

There are problems with SRS. Quality of surgery varies, the orgasm rate for MTFs seems to be about 25-30%, and self-promoting surgeons like (100% orgasm Biber) need to be held accountable for their advertising. However, most people who have it are glad they did, and that includes perhaps 400 people I personally know who had it.

The transgender movement is largely about moving away from binary gender roles, and that includes the right to have or not have surgery regardless of one's gender role. Sometimes people have have recently had SRS, like Dana, get a bit carried away. Sometimes post-ops believe SRS legitimizes them in some way (See Anne Lawrence et al.'s statement about the Michigan Womyn's Music Festival for an example of this). Sometimes people who elect not to have surgery have a lot of emotion tied up in trying to justify their decision by demonstrating that SRS is evil, wrong, misrepresented, or just a mistake. Bottom line, it's here to stay, and some folks will have it and some won't.

"I keep coming back to this question: Why hasn't a single large hospital or established medical institution (County USC, e.g) embraced this surgery? Have you known the medical profession traditionally to turn down an opportunity to make an extra buck or two?"

This is the sex-negative U.S. culture. Hopkins took a huge risk in starting their gender clinic and at the first hint of trouble (even artificially manufactured trouble) it got a huge amount of negative publicity. What large U.S. institution would risk it? Nontheless, there are several university-affiliated gender programs in the U.S., and any number of private practitioners.

I wrote Paul McHugh about five years ago, pointing out that although his success in closing the Hopkins clinic led to more SRS because it created a market economy. That's what we have now; the days of the big university gender program is gone, and good riddance.

Other countries, for instance Germany, the Netherlands, the U.K., Australia, Canada, and several Eastern European nations all have gender programs.

"For that matter, why does virtually no insurance company cover SRS costs, considering how it's supposed to be a vital treatment for transsexuals?"

Insurance companies don't have much of a clue. Janice Raymond waged a campaign of disinformation in the early 80s, managing to convince the HCFA to let her write a paper on the subject. You can imagine what she wrote. Insurance companies are phobic, as is much of the rest of the U.S.; they don't want to take risks on a controversial treatment-- and SRS is still and will probably always be controversial.

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Hi Dallas Denny -

Thanks for being ... well, honestly, the first intelligent transsexual with whom I've had the privilege to correspond. Your exhaustive bibliography and obvious knowledge of SRS is a privilege to behold, and your apparent lack of an agenda is refreshing in the traditional cacophony of pugnacious cant.

You may have caught the gist of my response to Michelle Steiner when you intimated your agreement that trannies need not all be cut from the same cloth, and Dana Rivers' overzealous definition of "woman" might not have been your own personal anatomical interpretation.

I read your attached download text; very interesting, but I feel the Meyer-Reter study has been "spun" by post-ops. The main criticism of the study seems to be that it focused on SRS candidates who exhibited various degrees of suicidal tendencies, and that inherently skewed the study. But later in the same article, defenders of SRS state that surgical candidates view the surgery as inevitable and mandatory, and will go to dangerous extremes in its absence (specifically referring to the T who blew her penis off in a Winnebago). Ergo, ALL trannies are potential suicides in the absence of SRS, based on this newspaper article.

I also suspect any study conducted prior to, say, five years post-op. From my own surgeries I know the honeymoon period can be lengthy and powerful. A few years down the road, however, when employers still won't hire you or "normal" men still won't date you, the reality of transsexual existence may ameliorate whatever initial blush of womanhood the patient enjoys.

I obviously know several post-ops. Frankly, DD, they're all crazy, and in SERIOUS denial. As facilitator of our local support group for two years, believe me when I say: there are so many secondary psychological and sexual and emotional issues for nearly every T, the LAST thing most of us need is irrevocable surgery to remove a functioning body part and a necessary physiological hormone. Stabilize, babe, then we can talk ...

The most cogent quote in the article you forwarded came at the end, from Dr. Money: "Transsexuals do not become the opposite sex after surgery-- they remain transexuals." Sadly, I'm ignored when I try to emphasize that point to my friends who believe SOMEONE ... their ex-lover, their disowned family, the entire world ... will love them when they address the "cognitive dissonance" found in a woman with a penis. But it almost never happens.

Anyway, thank you again for trying to shed some light on the SRS political hot potato. It was a pleasure hearing from someone besides the peanut gallery. :)

-- Kelli McAllister

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