My reflection isn't me,
I can't be the person that I see,
This person that you seem to know.
But where did I go?

I took 20 Advil and I'm still not dead,
But I wish I had some Valium instead.
I'd go to sleep and never wake again,
And your life will never be the same.

I don't know where I lost my way,
I don't know where night betrayed the day,
I can't find where I hid myself from this.
Can't find where I would be missed.

He loves me so I'll run away,
Run with him to another day.
It'll be alright cuz Disney said so,
Even though we don't know where we'll go.

Forever won't last that long,
If Mom and Dad find out I'm gone.
If somebody tells on what we're doing,
Than it's not really even worth going.

It's worth whatever it takes to get away from this place,
Worth whatever I need to recognize my own face.
So I'm stuck in this sucky life,
Stuck until I learn to fly.

I'm trying to die, why won't you just let me?
Why do you make me stay here when death would be a relief?
Why am I so scared of knives if they would let me go?
Are these really things that I should know?

Everyone else gets to be happy when I'm not,
Nobody else cares that I never fought.
I don't care if they stay away,
I'm getting out of here someday.

Nobody knows me and nobody cares.
And everyone thinks that I'm unaware.
I'm not stupid, I just don't listen.
It's not my fault that you don't pay attention.

E. Suzanne Durell

Copyright ©2001 E. Durell