08.27.03
grrr.. i hate it when she is soo close-minded!. deym! i was suppose to go wit one of ma closest friends' burdei today but hell no.. she dint allow to me go.. waddafawk?! she was rantin abt this guy again and oh my god.. she juz cant take a word for it. i told her that NOTHING.. as in NOTHING is between me and that guy except for friendship. duh! how am i suppose to treat a friend's brother?! and besides he was once from ma skool so he was sort of part of my circle of friends! ggrrr.. does she hafta act like this all tha time?! coz mhin.. i reallie reallie cant take it anymore.. iono how to change this kinda attutide of hers but dooooood... she's got an attitude problem. even tho i wanted to talk to her.. deym!! she wudnt listen to any word at all! in fact, even tho if i talk, she wud never consider any of thoz points that i juz said. fawk!!! oh God, why did u ever made thiz life for me?! i swear to God when i got ma own kids, i aint gon treat em like thiz.. coz the success of parenting is counted to how much your kids luv u.. and i swear i wont ever let them hate me! ugh.. imma shudafuccap naw coz prolly she's reading this ryt naw and after this she'll get mad at me.. again. (when does she ever compilement me anywayz?!) aitte adios.
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08.12.03
TGIF. lol. yeah. thank GOD ish friday. deym.. i gotz to unwind. lol. me n ma chikkas went to dha mal.. agin..(lol) and went on a window shopping. lol. we always do dhat. iono why but i never get tired of window shopping. lyk i wuv dha pleasur of seeing thoz thingz i cant buy and tryin em on in dha fitting room and then take em off again and walk outta there without even buyin a single item. lol. ish lyk.. wear and dump. yay. but hell yea.. if only i gotz dha money n shytz, i'd buy ma self thoz thingz. but i gotz no job. iont wunna ask dollars from ma rents cuz iont want em to be burdened by ma shopaholic. lol. but nwys, as usual, ma rentz got mad at me coz we went home almost 9 pm. i know wer wrong. but i got a lil bit disappointed wen ma mom told me dhat i shud take dha skool bus goin home startin nexx week or else.. ugh! iont like using dha skool bus.. ish soooo grade skool. deym. but nwys, i'd obey em. but hopefully i cuz styll go out on fridays/saturdayz so i cud go chill n go window shopping agin. lol. ish ma only happiness. lol. nwys, bail.
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0.02.03
first day of skool! yay. dun lyk it at all. but ish all good. it aint good coz all of ma homiez before never came back to cabot. deym.. imma miss thoz retards. lol. anywayz, i dont lyk ma math class.. coz dha first tym i heard its course name i reallie didnt lyked it at all. ish called functions. ugh. and iont lyk ma classmates there. altho i knoe sum people there but thoz were dha people that i reallie dun lyk at all. prolly sum of em. deym. but ish too late. i cud have dropped it and changed it to an easier math.. coz i dun wanna have another burden at ma back. anyways, after skool me n ma chikkaz went to square 1. we juz chilled foe a whyl coz dha whole day wuz reallie boring.. considerin dhat it aint reallie borin before. so anyways, we saw our homiez and we were lyk "why arent u in cabot?!". and they went lyk "coz i aint gon go there nemoe". awww fawk. imma miss em. i miss thoz dayz when we juz fool around dha caf durin our lunches. so i gotz C as ma lunch.. only wit jackie and david. yea.. dazz ryt. juz dha three of us. boring eh? i knoe. and ish fawk.. reallie mean. so me n ma sista went home around 6. ma mom got mad.. as usual. nuthin's wrong in square 1.. why she so mad? iono. somtimes, they juz dont understand how it is tuh be a teenager. or rather most of dha time. jackie n jeanne are reallie lucky wit their parents.. they understand em n they arent reallie dhat strict wit their daughters. how i wish ma parents wud be lyk dhat too. prolly if they werent reallie strict at all, i cud have been good to em. not becoz i get wut i want but becoz i knoe they understand me. but imma good girl too yanno. coz i try ma ass juz to get good grades.. and luckily i do. ma grades are higher than ma chikkas (hehe..). so there's nuthin to worry abt. so why get so strict on me? ugh.. iono if they understand me at all. wish i cud juz talk to em abt it sincerely.. coz i reallie wantz to be good to em. damn skippy. nwys, gotta bail naw.
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08.30.03
im hella bored hea. ma mom got mad at me coz we went home reallie late last tuesday. it aint aiite but im coo wid it. i knoe ish ma fault too but she shudnt have hit me. naw i reallie dun wanna go out of dhiz room. if i'll be out hea id prolly be outside dha house or downstairs gettin sum food. lol. skool dayz comin. fawk. dun wanna go to skool. summer's too short. i shud have gone out a lot so i wudnt miss all dha fun dhiz summer. shyt man.. i hate dhiz kinda life. i need a job so i cud make ma self useful.
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08.08.03
i wud so wuv tuh hurt mah self ryt naw. nuffin excitin tuh do out hea. iont even knoe why m bloggin ryt naw mean. wut tha fuck iz thiz shit's use if all i'd say is "blah blah..nuffin reallie happend tuhdei.." *sigh. pleez. i wun go out. even jus on weekendz. i need tuh have a social lyf. dun lemme be a loser. oh fuck. i knoe. she aint listnin. *sigh.
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08.07.03
shit i hate thiz. aint doin anythin ryt naw. wut i did tuhdei? obeyed mah mom. daz qwut i did that whole fuckin day. nexx tym if u'll ask me wut i do fo' fun? i'd say prolly the funnest thang i did thiz august ish tuh open tha main door n go out then go in agin after 5 secs... fun eh? shit. why wudnt u wun lemme go out?! even juz on weekendz?! pleez lemme go out. i dun wunna be stuck hea forevah! awww fuck. she wudnt listen tuh me anywayz. adios.
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