I walked up the stairs and passed all the photos on the wall. I stopped by our wedding photo. Oh Rob what went wrong? Then I realised I�d said that aloud. I looked around; feeling embarrassed, even though I knew there was no one else in the house. I sat down on the stairs holding the frame in my hands. I sat and stared. The next sound I heard was a car pulling up outside. I quickly hung the picture back up on the wall and walked to the kitchen. I sat in the chair waiting for Rob�s keys to jangle in the lock and for him to walk in, complaining loudly about the idiot he works for and how annoying the clients he saw today were.
Instead I saw a familiar figure at the door. I ran towards the door, as I passed the staircase I looked up and stopped. What am I doing? I thought. I turned to walk back into the kitchen thinking maybe he hadn�t seen me when the letterbox flipped open. �I know you�re there Comfort, I�ve seen you. Open the door and let me in girl!� What do I do? I stood swaying between the front door and the kitchen. I want to run away and hide. �Go away Finn, I can�t talk to you now, Rob will be back any minute.� I was lying through my teeth and I hated it, but desperate times call for desperate measures. He knew I was lying, he seemed to go away and I walked back upstairs, lay down on the bed and cried.
I cried for Finn, it wasn�t fair hurting him like this, he must think I�m such a cow but deep down I think he knows I like him. I hope he does. He must do. I�ve done it again, thought aloud.
I cried for Rob. I hate myself for doing this, carrying on the affair. My only consolation is that he doesn�t know so he can�t be hurting. Or can he? Don�t think like that, I scolded myself. It has to end, and now. No I can�t do it. As I started to sit up, I fell back.
It sounds awful but most of all I was crying for myself. It�s selfish and unforgivable but at that very moment I felt so sorry for myself. I wanted to run and hide but I knew that wasn�t possible it would only cause more trouble than staying. I have to face the music, tell Rob about the affair and tell Finn it�s over. It�s going to be hard but it has to be done.
I lay back and for the first time in a long time I felt calm and relieved. I started to drift into a gentle dreamless sleep when I was rudely awakened by the phone.