A day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich
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Lesson # 14045b
On an other note, I have been reading Mickeymse's journal from 1998. When ever I read another journalers journal it always sparks memories of past encidents in my life or ideas on issues I want to explore. Mickeymse's journal gives me more ideas than most. In readiing his entries from late April of that year he brought back some unhappy memories from when I was at Kansas State University. When asked what was the worse moment in my life I would have to say that when I realized that the person I thought of as a best friend treated me worse than I would treat my worse enemy. That would be when I was at my lowest. The fact that I should have been forewarned didn't make me feel any better. I knew from experience how he often treated others but niavely thought he wouldn't treat me that way. I was so disillusioned by his actions and attitude that I forbid my friends to mention him by name in my presence.
For Mickey this pivital moment was the rejection of his best friend once he relized that Mickey was Gay and possibly in love with him. For me It was the realization that my feelings counted for nothing. That even a one night stand was more important than our friendship. When it was all said and done his behavior was the catalyst for me to totally change the direction of my life. For that I blame and thank him. I never spoke to him and for years after I often would walk blocks out of my way to avoid even the chance of running into him.
I don't know if I am even now over his betrayal. I know that I, in my heart have yet to forgive him. it was more than five years later that he even regained a name. He was always refered to as "he who has no name" in the interm even by friends I made after our falling out. When I finally began to refer to him as Pat again several friends told me that they had never even known what his name was.
Now on to happier news - My friends Charlie and Alyssa have just had their second child. It was a happy and healty boy his name is Russell Andrew. I have purchased a real cute outfit for him and will be sending it out later this week.
CONGRADULATIONS CHARLIE AND ALYSSA
--Cya!
