I Know I shouldn't be writing this, as if you people ever read warnings, eh? Heck, that's why you're here in the first place! But to annoy you people even more, I'll just write on about how idiotic you people are by entering a place where you don't want to be. But as fair game, SHOO, SHOO! You Yaoi fearers! This fic contains mucho yaoi and hefty slices of shota-con. Read at your own risk... And, before I forget, this is sort of a prelude to the acceptance series, approximately a day before the events that occurred there. They're about two years older in this fic, as I just realized that they're too young to actually experience any of this... He he...
How many days has it been? 7, no, 8 days... It's been that long already? How much longer is it going to be until we reach there? How much longer do I have to wait until I can finally reach home and be normal again? But, normal... That's something that I don't think I can be again... We kissed once, that's it. But ever since then, I just can't seem to get him out of my head. Tai's lips were so soft and so sweet, I felt as if I would explode if I didn't get to get my feelings out of my pathetic little shell. Heh, calling myself pathetic, that's something I've never done before. Maybe it's because I had to act cold to meet their expectations. But I'm tired of doing what other people think I would do. I'm sick of having to act so cool and so self-dependent. That's maybe why I cry so much at night. I just want a shoulder to cry on when I feel so vulnerable, so weak. When my fears take over me, and when I just want someone to hold me close...
"Hey Mat, you busy?"
My trains of thoughts were interrupted by the voice of Tai... He sat beside me on the same log that I sat on as I watched the fire turn the wood into glowing embers. I'm just too confused now... How am I supposed to tell Tai...?
"... Tai? What's happened between you and Sora?"
"What!? Umm, Mat, why do you ask?"
"... Nervous whenever I say her name? Kinda embarrassed by it?"
"No! It's not that! You know... I'm not really sure if I want to... You know, be her boyfriend and all..."
"First night Jitters, eh?"
"What do you mean 'first night jitters'? Are you saying that me and Sora have plans to do it?"
"I'm not saying anything, you're just forcing ideas into my head."
He turned his eyes to the crackling flames that shed it's comforting heat in this cold forest night and remained silent. The flames danced, like tiny firecrackers, it was almost hypnotic. But Tai wasn't interested in looking at the flames, or at just sitting here. No, he had something in his mind, I could sense it...
"What is it, Tai?"
"... Huh? What are you saying?"
"What are you thinking about? I know you have something you want to say to me."
"..."
"Well?"
"... Mat, remember the time we kissed?"
"What about it?"
"Well, didn't you just think it was weird? I know it was just a dare, but, well?"
"I dunno Tai... What am I supposed to think?"
"... Didn't you think it was more than a kiss?"
"Huh?"
"When we kissed, you weren't holding back were you? I could feel your hands brushing against my spine. You were doing more things than the dare required... And you actually gave me tongue, that's something I never thought you'd do..."
"So, what are you saying? That I like you? Is that it?"
"No Mat! I didn't mean it that way! It's just that..."
"Just shut up, Tai! Just shut up!"
I stood up and ran towards the dense forestry, in an attempt to lose Tai in the darkness. I ran as fast as I could, trying to lose the sound of twigs cracking from behind me. I ran faster, in a last attempt to dissuade Tai from following me, even though I knew that if that happened, it would be an act of god. And then, I felt the ground disappear from underneath my feet...
"Yaaahhh!!!" My scream draining practically all the air from inside my lungs and I feel my chest tighten as the thought of falling towards jagged rocks and the idea of smashing my head through stone brings me to the point of absolute fear. I need help, and I need it now! My vision goes blank and all I see is darkness...
(Much later...)
"Unnggghhh..." The stinging sensation of sunlight suddenly piercing its ways through soft lidded eyes was not a very nice way to start a morning. I sat up and saw Izzy re-plotting our map on his computer, Mimi just combing her hair until it would reach the point of falling out. Sora was playing with young TK and Joe just sat there underneath the shade of a large tree, bored. But, where's Tai? He obviously wasn't here, his omnipresent cheerful air had disappeared from the campsite.
"Hey guys! Where's Tai?"
"Tai went over to the lake to take a bath. You might catch him there." Izzy answered me as he still typed intently on his computer, his attention unwavering. I stood up and headed for the lake, which was just a little bit east of here. I was hoping to catch Tai there, to tell him thank you. But more importantly, how I felt... I also hoped that I could catch Tai in a more... revealing situation... After a few moments of walking, I finally reach the Lake. Yes, Tai is there, bathing in the weak morning light. I stood there for a minute, just trying to delay time by watching Tai there, in all his naked glory. He soon went under a small waterfall and there he covered his entire body in a stream of crystal clear water. I walked over to him, trying my best to retain my cool posture, even though I know I should try to readjust the sensation in my groin... My hormones started to rage like it has never done before. I could feel my knees grow weak just by watching him. My heart pounded faster minute by minute. I couldn't take it anymore... I want Tai. I want him, now! I took of my shirt and undid my pants. Tossing my underwear aside, I dived into the deeper area of the lake and swam towards Tai. More concerned about his hygiene than in me, I was easily able to swim beside him. I emerged from the water with a slight splash and an accompanying slight smile on my lips. Tai gapes at me, accidentally swallowing in some of the water from the falls. He spits the water out to his side and I smile at him. He's always been such a klutz. That's why I like him, I guess. So naive, so carefree, so very Tai...
"Mat! What are you doing here?"
"Surprised? Just wanted to say thank you, you know, for saving my life..."
"That's okay, don't even think about it."
"... Tai, there's something I have to tell you..."
"Mat, mind if I go first?"
"... Okay, shoot."
"... I love you, Mat."
"Huh?"
"I said, I love you."
"You do? You really do?!"
"Yes! Mat, I've always loved you! I wanted to say it to you last night but you wouldn't listen. I just thought..."
I cut Tai's speech with my mouth. I covered his mouth with mine and I kissed him in a way that I only dreamed of doing. My tongue danced with his in a dance of passion. I was surprised to find that Tai had taken the liberty of coaxing his hands towards my crotch and even more, taken the liberty of moving his hand up and down my shaft. I disengage my lips from his, pulling them back just from the feeling of having someone else stroke my member. He pumped it gently at first, but he soon quickened the pace of his movements. I moaned while still grabbing onto Tai's shoulders to contain myself. I mentioned to Tai that the water was distracting and he agreed to my suggestion of doing this on the bank of the lake. Tai wrapped his hands around me as we both fell on the soft grass and our lips were locked. Tai separated our lips and asked me...
"Mat, just wondering, have you ever had someone inside of you?"
"... No, not yet, Tai. Have you?"
"There's always the first try, you know."
"So what do you say?"
"Just waiting for you..."
I thought about this for a moment. I love Tai and all, but I think we're still a little too young for this. I wouldn't be ready, and I think, neither would he. But, almost instinctively, I answered...
"Please Tai..."
No longer had I said this and Tai had soon became the aggressor and had me on the bank, on my back, while he gently slid himself inside me. My muscles tensed up and I could feel every movement that Tai had just executed. Ever so slowly he pushed his engorged organ up my ass and I felt his soft brown pubic hair brushing against my buttocks. I tried to hold back a tear, half from the joy and half from the pain...
"Mat, does it hurt?" He asked me before he went any deeper. He saw my eyes and he stopped to ask me if I was okay. He cared for me, something that I wanted someone to do for a long time already. I looked up at his soft brown eyes, and felt at ease completely... Despite the pain that I felt, I knew he wouldn't hurt me on purpose...
"I'm okay, Koibito... I'm okay..." This was all I needed to say before I could feel Tai slowly slide himself inside of me one more time, but this time, it was up to the hilt. I had a little trouble accommodating Tai, being a virgin and all, and Tai being endowed with a manhood as large as his. But I knew I loved him, and this forced everything else out of my mind. I rocked my hips along with his, to give him a rhythm to follow. Soon enough, I felt Tai's body twitch a bit and soon followed by a tenseness that I felt only when we fought. I felt myself being filled with the warm, wet seed that Tai had just shot into my system. I also felt, for the first time, the feeling of my self-exploding at the feeling of the bliss that I had just entered. My stomach was covered with my cum and I felt Tai slowly remove his organ from inside of me. He licked my stomach, lapping the fluid as if it were ambrosia fit only for gods. A few moments after that, Tai had lied down beside me, both of our faces facing each other. I brushed my hand against some of the loose strands of his wet hair that quivered in the wind. He smiled at me and said...
"How I wish this would just last forever... A moment that would just last forever..."
We lay there, just staring at each other's eyes. How many minutes passed since we lay down there before either one of us spoke a single word? But the silence was refreshing, providing me an opportunity to just look at him more closely, more carefully.
"Mat, what are we supposed to tell them?"
"Nothing I guess... Should we keep this a secret?"
"I guess so... I wouldn't want Sora to hate me..."
"Yeah, the girl has feelings for you Tai, you'd better not crush her heart with my hands."
"Let's just be quiet about this, okay?"
"Sure... I wouldn't want TK to suddenly find out. I don't know how he'd take this... I don't think he's even be able to understand a bit of what's going on."
"So, mum's the word, right?"
"Mum's the word."
"Good..."
Tai held my head in his hands and he pressed our lips together one more time. We were so close then that we didn't notice that someone was coming nearer. But by the time we found out that someone was watching us, it was too late... We both heard the rustling of the bushes and we both turned to find out who had been spying at us. It was... Sora? She covered her open mouth with her hands and I could see her eyes watering at the very sight of us together.
"TAI! How could you? How could you do this to me...?"
"Sora! Wait!"
"No, Tai! I won't! I hate you Tai! Just stay there with Mat for all that I care!"
Sora ran through the forest, tears streaming down her face. Tai turned to me and I could see his pleading eyes, asking me for an answer...
"Tai, go... Just, go after her..."
"Mat, I... I'm so sorry..."
With that, Tai started to hurriedly dress up. He ran through the forest barefooted and Shirtless. And then, I just stared at my reflection in the water... Now what do I do? What must I do?
The end... Or is it?