you tell me to build,
You show me pain,
You tell me to adapt,
You kill me here,
You teach me to be again.
I watch and learn
Hear and obey
Taste and shudder...
for the pain brought down upon my head
will be more
than i have ever felt
my eyes locked to your's
Tell me now, was it you?
That told me to die...
That made me feel pain...
That showed me the shadows...
That brought me to the light...
My body trembling within your grasp
Feeling you all around me
Pulling me closer
Little nothings whispered
Earth-shattering sights to be seen
All within your blazing eyes
Your hands feeling
Grasping my fading form
Trying to preserve me
Wanting to pervade me
All for yourself.
Tell me now
Those words again
I shall learn and be me
I will not fail again
Into the depths of your arms
Into the fires of your eyes
Into the wastelands of your soul.
It was always about you
My pain aside.
I was forever
And i did abide
It was easier for you
and i was to die.
To dream of it again
Within my own mind
To see you here again
and hold you within my arms.
Just leave me, and let it be
Let the past be buried
I wnat to move on.
Just go now
Leave me within the shadows
To become one myself
LEave now, leave me
To be broken since that day....
A broken shadow within my mind,
Of what i once was
Of what i could be
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Bright yellow ball, so attracting to the eye
Etching its eternal beauty into my constant stare
And drilling it into my heart, feeling hope
That nothing would end our love affair
Painful heat, bearable only due to the beauty
From which it came, face blistering....still i stare
Small price, for the beauty i am privelaged to behold
But aching eyes forced my gaze away from there
Only to capture images of dullness and distortion
My gaze, forced back to brightness, choosing pain over dispair
Even as the image faded, realizing too late
Vision turned to blackness, no longer beauty, bare
I should have turned away at the first onset of pain
I was blind, but now im blind........and i don't care
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deep in the chambers
of my mind
theres a story ive told to no one
silently i screamed
the tale
that would make me
refer to my life
as hell
why should i tell you
you wont understand
it wouldn't make
sense to you
because you're not me
you're not seeing
through my eyes
or experienceing my pain
if i told you
you'd only have to listen
for a minute
while i hear
the tortureconstantly
i don't want you
to have to feel the heat
that burnes the hope out of my flesh
The flames grow higher
they feed on my pain...but you'll never know
because i laugh
