Test Subject
Caught in a rat's maze in my mind
Escape is a test, not a matter of time
Bend my will, force me to submit
To die beneath shit and live for nothing
Emtpy spaces fill my eyes
Chemicals course thru my veins like blood
It's for a good cause, but they lie
They didn't think twice when they should've.
When the door opens, the lights go out
When I touch the button, the pain comes
When I look around, I see a reflection
When I look inside, I see a test subject
Men in white lab coats, scrutinizing me
My life is theirs, my blood, chemistry
I don't understand what they want with my body
But they seem intent on raping my mind as well
Strip my flesh to see what's inside
Open my brain to see how it works
Poke my heart to see if I cry
Stab my eye to see if it hurts
Destroy my soul to see if I have one
I crouch in my cage all day long
Dare to breathe only when the doctors have gone
They don't give me a name, so they don't get attached
I wonder if their wives have names, or are they afraid of that?
They hooked me up to a computer yesterday
Put plugs inside me to see how I function
I could've cried, but who would've listened?
None of them cares for anything I say
Touch me where I was never meant to be touched
Hurt me in a way I was never meant to be hurt
Used me in a way I was never meant to be used
Fucked me in a way that should never have been
They give me drugs to see how I react
See what happens to my body
My body may die, but my life, what of that?
But they never care, why should they?
They spray things into my eyes, see if my pupils dilate
Why don't you just rip me apart, see if my heart still beats?
It's hard to breathe now, one experiment too many
Can't keep what's left of my eyes open
Can't move, can't do anything - I hope you're happy
Killed me for science - what a fucking reason
Ah, this is too much, somebody pull the plug
Euthanise me before the pain becomes too much
Somebody do something - first you try to kill me, now keep me alive
Stupid fucking scientists, make up your damn minds
Can't find my way out of the rat's maze in my head
It would be so much better if I was just dead
But they wouldn't let me die, they'd just keep me alive so they could kill me some more
This is sadism of the lowest form, a very sick joke
Sure, now you try to keep me from dying, now you try to keep me alive
I think I'll die just to spite you motherfuckers
Well, so long guys, it wasn't fun in the least sense, but my death was nice
Have fun with your next fucking test subject
Goodnight, Gracie.