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| why does life always have to take a turn for the worst? everything was fine and dandy now it is all messed up i never seem able to find a happy spot or way in my life if i do find that moment and that place, it is always taken from me before i can truely enjot it. sorrow is felt crying is done pain is felt nothing is gained but knowledge and pain everything is lost that is good. feel the anger within can you grasp the hatred, can you? if you can, dismiss it from you and your life, otherwise it will control your life don't let the pain mess you up any more never give into the desires of hate in your body, you'll end up regretting it sorrow is felt crying is done pain is felt nothing is gained but knowledge and pain everything is lost that is good. you'll become your worst nightmare you'll live the lie of a life you created you'll die unhappy with yourself you'll regret the day you created the hate you'll regret living the day as a hateful person you'll regret the day |
| Untitled Sept 27, 2001 |
| More writings will be added at some point in time but this is a start for the time being of my writings from the soul. |
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| life has thrown many things into my path along the way i've always been taught that whatever is put before you, you can handle God will only allow what you can handle to be placed in front of you i'm not doing very well with this at all i feel so bogged down i feel so helpless my answers for everything is sleep i can't concentrate on anything i can't seem even able to force myself to do anything i know i need to be doing sleep seems to be my only friend my only comfort, in life right now can't i just hide in my room and sulk the days away? i don't want to have anything to do with anyone else even though i need the company of people and want it, it is what hurts me the most people are so hurtful, yet they are the ones who love us while upon this earth so i long for their love and affection, yet i fear the hurt the pain and the neglect that they bring with them to any type of relationship why can't i just be happy and feel love, safety and happiness, while in a relationship with a person, be it a friendship or what not right now i hate life more than i love it i want it to all go away i know i can't hide from it but that is all i want to do i want to run away and hide i don't want to see life anymore i don't want to do this anymore, live a life of pain, regret, suffering and unhappiness why can't it just all go away? |
| Untitled November 14, 2001 |
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