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Age: 23
Height: 169cm (5"6')
Start: 120kg (264.5lb)
Current: 85kg (187lb)
Goal: 60kg (132lb)

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55kg (121lb)
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A cosmic influence is at work, but you can easily ignore it. If you want to avoid this helpful influence, just respond to everything in your world that seems big, extreme or urgent. Before you know it you'll be too busy to notice anything else. But if you stnad back and ask why it's really so important to be here, go there, to do this and deal with that, you should make and interesting discovery: it isn't. There is an easier (but less obvious) way to proceed. It involves having a little faith in the idea that the right things in life will naturally make their way to you. (Jonathan Cainer)

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11TH JULY: FREAKING OUT

I added a new dream this morning, so go and read it to keep me happy! On other news I am freaking out. I hate having to check my mail, however it is next Thursday that I am really worried about. Each year July 17 worries me, as I dreamt many times that something bad would happen on that day. And each year I have asked a certain someone to come and stay with me on that date but each time she has left me in the lurch. If only she knew how much it worried me. In 2000 it was the weirdest as the moon was full and red due to a full eclipse of the sun or something like that. I was terrified and all alone. Same thing happened each year since then. This year is a little weird as even though I can’t ask this certain someone to come and have her not come again due to the fact that I HATE HER, something else is weird. This may sound stupid to some of you, but the release of Terminator 2: Rise of the Machines had me weirded out. Most of my July 17 dreams had to do with the end of the world. I am really looking forward to its release as I loved the previous 2, but it is a little weird that it is being released on that day and I am totally freaked out. Really, I am. I also refuse to go see it on opening day, I will wait until the following week, if there is one! LMAO, sorry, feeling a little freaked out. Cheers.

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FEELING SUPER FAT

I am still like totally freaking out man. Except now it is over the fact that I will have very little money this following week because all bills tend to come in on time. Argh, I’ll get over it. I am also fretting away because I feel as though I am getting fatter and that it is going to take me 6 years to lose this big fat belly of mine. I almost reverted to the low carb diet for a few weeks so that I can lose a lot quickly, but I don’t want to. I just want to lose weight. I think that I would be happy with a kilo a week (that means 30 weeks until I get to my goal weight) but I don’t feel as thought I am losing anything at all. Maybe perhaps because I am 10kg over the lowest that I was before I went on this months long binge of mine.
Tomorrow is my day off yet I almost don’t want to do it because I am afraid that I will gain extra kilos. If I don’t BINGE I should be fine. And I have been thinking about doing only 1000cals a day, but that is perhaps a little low. I think that maybe I will put a limit of 1250cal, and exercise a lot more. When Missy wakes up I am going to do 20 minutes or so of aerobics. I was thinking of doing some Pilates before dinner, of perhaps afterwards, but I can still feel it from yesterdays. Perhaps I will try them now. I think however I may wait until after I do aerobics. I am feeling super fat. Cheers.

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