It isn't as if

Title: It Isn't As If She is Broken
Author: Geekmomma
Pairing: Ginny/Pansy
Rating: R?
Disclaimer: They're not mine, JKR, I�m just playing. I will give them back when I'm done, I PROMISE. I am not doing this for profit.

A/N: There is sort of reference to "Lemon Zingers" by Zahra, because I like Slytherins that lick. Thanks so much Valeria, who beta'd for this little piece. Kisses!

It isn't as if she is broken.

She has a family that adores her, and friends around her, and her brother is best friends with the Boy Who Lived, did you know?

She is admired and respected and she is dangerous.

She has always known that she is dangerous. She's known ever since she was a small girl and she told her mother that eyeballs look like eggs before they are all the way cooked and you can smash them down and they ooze out from under your shoe in strange ways and the edges jiggle strangely as they lie in the dust, and her mother gave her the oddest look. Her mother had been afraid of Ginny, just for that moment. Ginny had never seen her mother look like that, not even when the twins blew the roof of the Burrow when they were both nine. She and Ron had almost been buried in the rubble, and the twins had been grounded to their rooms without wands for most of that year. But her mother hadn�t looked at them like that. It was a special look just for Ginny.

Ginny likes being special.

She is the only girl in a houseful of boys. She is quiet and shy where they are boisterous and rude. She is round where they are flat, and concave where they are convex. She is very, very special.

What she doesn't understand is why no one can see this. She walks through classes with everyone else, and sleeps in the dorm room with everyone else, eats her meals with everyone else, and is never, ever alone. She is out in the open, and unseen. As she passes people in the hallways, they say "Hi Ginny" and "All Right, Ginny?" and don't ask her to study or go to Zonko�s or giggle with her late at night in the common room. Even when implicated in the attempted murder of other Hogwarts students, she is patted on the head, given chocolate and warm milk, and almost as an afterthought, sent to see Madame Pomfrey.

Tom knew she was dangerous. He whispered in her ear, and promised her lots of things. Good things, like power, and spells and magic. Special things. But Tom went away, and it turned out that he was not, after all, special.

Ginny likes being special.

There is one girl in the school who has noticed Ginny. She is special too. She visits Ginny in the Hospital Wing, and brings her chocolate. Not Chocolate Frogs, those are Ron's favorite. She brings a box of tiny little insect-shaped chocolates, each with perfect detail, color and all. She says that she thought Ginny might like them.

Ginny pulls the legs off because they feel funny moving in her tummy like that. She eats every one. The special girl says she has chocolate on her lip, just there, and licks it off.

Ginny smiles, and knows then that Pansy sees she is special.

They meet at night, in empty classrooms, and later, in dorm rooms when everyone is at the library, because Pansy could be helping Ginny with Transfiguration, after all. Never mind that Pansy is a Slytherin, and shouldn't know the Gryffindor password, and shouldn't be helping a Gryffindor with homework. Ginny is above suspicion, and their eyes glide right over the inconsistency of Pansy in enemy territory.

And so they meet, and this is what happens in dark corners and quiet spaces:

Pansy whispers secret things that Ginny didn't know, as she licks and kisses and bites a long path down her neck, and into the 'V' of her blouse. She murmurs little spells as she unbuttons Ginny's shirt, and slides her hand up her skirt. Charms to still the wind, spells to call love, potions to make eyelashes dark, or blonde, or disappear. Each of these is new, each one makes Ginny a little more sure of herself, and sure of Pansy.

Ginny whispers back. She bites the smooth expanse of upper thigh, and scratches her nails slowly down Pansy�s belly, and tells her about Tom, and the things that Tom knew. She reminds Pansy that Tom was broken, and tells him how. She thinks she knows what went wrong. He was always so proud. Ginny licks her own fingers as she says this, and slides them into Pansy, who opens her mouth to agree with a gasp.

Ginny might have been broken, but Pansy can fix her. Ginny and Pansy are very, very special.