I'm Sorry, I'm Leaving.
Chapter 5
By: Sarah
Cicily stepped into the garage for what she was afraid would be her last time. Her eyes scanned the room, searching for Joel. Her mind raced as she looked around, wondering if Joel worked on not. She tugged gently at her shirt, her heart racing with nervousness.
� Can I help you, miss?�
Cicily turned around. It wasn�t Joel. Joel�s voice was a lot smoother and softer. For such a strong presence, Joel had an unusually subtle, soft way of doing things. Cicily found that extremely attractive, probably because she knew underneath that mild, gentle joking manner was a strong, sexy, commanding guy just waiting to get out.
� Hi! Is Joel here?� She asked, glancing around.
� Yea, he�s in the office. Right around the corner.� The other mechanic pointed. Cicily smiled, oddly relieved that Joel was there. She wouldn�t have been able to leave if he wasn�t. She slowly walked around the corner and to the office door. It was halfway open, so she knocked tentatively before stepping inside. Joel was inside, his back to her, talking on the phone.
� I really need those parts by Monday, Craig.� He was leaning up against a desk which was piled with papers. Cicily watched as he slowly twirled the phone chord around his fingers. She took a deep breath and looked away. � Yea, I need major parts�really important.� He said. Cicily walked back and knocked on the door again and this time Joel turned around. He smiled broadly and motioned for her to come in. � Yea, just get it here by Monday, ok? Ok, thanks. Yea�talk to you later, bye.� He hung up and turned to Cicily.
� Hey.� She smiled.
� Hey! What are you�� He faded off.
� My car!� Cicily smiled, hoping he didn�t think she was some pathetic girl who didn�t understand the concept of �one night stands�.
� Oh! Yea!� Joel laughed and walked around the desk, stepping up next to her. � Listen, I�wanted to talk to you�� He said. Cicily nodded, but didn�t smile. He sat on the edge of the desk, only a few feet from her. He was wearing the same dark pants and shirt that he always wore, as well as that incredible smile.
� About?� Cicily asked, trying to keep focused on something other than his arms. He cleared his throat.
� About what happened the other night.� He said, his voice soft and gentle as always. He stood up just as Cicily did and they nearly bumped into each other. Cicily was so close she could smell the faint hint of gasoline on his clothes and skin.
� What about it?� She asked, avoiding his eyes. Joel was quiet for a second.
� I just wanted to tell you�I don�t usually do that�and I don�t think�� He paused, for a second. Cicily swallowed hard, a lump forming in her throat. � I don�t think we should have done that��
� Was it bad?!� She asked, alarmed. Joel raised his hands.
� No! No, no�no�geez, I didn�t mean that. I meant�I didn�t�� He sighed. � I don�t know how you feel, but I don�t want you to feel�used, I guess.� He said. She looked up at him, his dark eyes focused on hers. She shook her head and smiled.
� Well� that�s really�sweet of you, Joel. But really, I�m ok with what happened. I don�t really regret it.� She said, lying slightly. She only regretted it because she knew it was going to make her more attached to him than she had intended to be. He nodded, taking a step forward. � I think you are a really awesome person, Cicily. It really wasn�t fair of me to take advantage of you like that�� He sighed.
� No, no, you didn�t take advantage of me��
� Well�I mean, I had sorta had this huge fight with my girlfriend, Leann, and� I guess I was sort of looking for someone and�� He started flopping around in his own words. Cicily nodded, trying to make sense of his jumbled words.
� So�you are still together?� She asked tentatively. Joel looked up and nodded.
� Yea, I guess. We�ve never been that�close anyway.� He shrugged. Cicily reached forward and touched his forearm lightly. His skin was soft and just as she had remembered the other night.
� I don�t regret the other night.� She said softly. Joel avoided her eyes for a second before staring directly into her.
� Me either.� He said after a second. Cicily glanced at the door to the office, making sure it was shut. She turned back to Joel, watching him, reading his body language. He stepped closer to her too, his hands moving up to her waist. The both stepped forward at the same time, their lips colliding together in a passionate and almost desperate kiss. Desperate for each other�s touch.
� When is your next break?� Cicily gasped inbetween kisses.
� Right now.� He replied with a smile. � I only have fifteen minutes though.� He said. She smiled devilishly.
� That�s enough time.� She said, leaning up and kissing the space right behind his ear. She moved slowly down his neck as her hands moved quickly down his stomach, her fingers running over the soft worn cotton of his shirt.
� Wow, I could get in a lot of trouble.� He said, pulling away slightly. Cicily frowned, but didn�t stop moving her hands. She slipped her hands down the waistband of his pants and Joel jumped slightly, pleasantly surprised.
� We can wait.� She said with an innocent smile. He shook his head and pulled her closer.
� No, we can�t.� He said with a quick smile. Cicily giggled and pulled his t-shirt off. He kissed her hard, and then softer. Reaching behind her, Joel lifted her swiftly onto the desk. He laughed.
� I�ve always wanted to do that.� He said with a smile. Cicily laughed and pulled him closer, wrapping her legs around him. His hands wandered from her arms to her face and then to her legs. He moved fast, but gently and Cicily had never been so happy that she had worn a skirt. Moving up her thighs, Joel watched her face as she gasped slightly and then smiled at him. Joel leaned down and slowly started kissing her knees and her thighs. His lips were soft and wet against her delicate skin. She closed her eyes for a second, letting herself feel only his lips and his hands against her skin. Cicily suddenly couldn�t wait any longer, she had to have him then. She had been waiting her whole life to feel emotions like this, and she didn�t want to just let them go to waste. She reached down and gently brought his face back up to hers and kissed him, relishing his taste.
� Now, Joel, please�� She said through ragged breaths. Joel didn�t make any moves though, he just kept kissing her neck and her collar bone, ignoring her requests. �Joel, please�now� I want you.� She said, grabbing his shoulders and pulling him closer. She quickly reached down and unclasped his belt, helping him out of his pants as fast as possible. He wrapped his arms around her, reaching down and pulling off her panties.
� God, you are so amazing.� He said taking her hands in his. She smiled and kissed him. He moved forward and let go of her hands long enough to move her against him, slipping inside her. Cicily gasped, pressing her lips into his shoulder. He moved quickly, pulling her closer and closer, using the desk as leverage.
� Oh god�� Cicily breathed, trying hard to stay quiet. It was nearly impossible. �Joel�OH god.� She cried, pressing her fingers hard into his back. He suddenly wrapped his arms around her, and picked her up. The pressure from picking her up hit her at just the right place and Cicily gasped, her body crumbling against his. Joel sat down on the desk and pulled her closer, moving slower now, letting her regain her composure. Cicily braced herself against his strong arms and shoulders and moved closer to him, pushing him deeper into her. He felt so good, like nothing she�d ever felt. Joel let her move against him, letting her take him at her own speed.
� Oh�Cic�� He groaned, pressing his lips against hers. She kissed him and started to feel every pleasurable thing that was happening start to intensify.
� Joel�don�t stop�don�t�� She cried. He smiled, out of complete joy.
� Shh�Cicily, they�re gonna�hear you.� He gasped. She bit her lip, feeling her body start to take over. Joel groaned, wrapping his arms around her, pulling her as close as possible. They were moving faster, their bodies in a natural rhythm. Cicily gasped, crying out softly as she pressed her fingers into Joel�s shoulders. She wrapped her arms around his neck and cried out as she came, pressing her lips hard into his neck. Joel held her close, rocking back and forth as he pushed into her one last time, shaking as he was brought back down to earth.
� Come over tonight.� Cicily whispered as she slowly caught her breath. Joel smiled and nodded.
� Definitely.� He kissed her again quickly and then handed her the keys to her car. � It�s done.� He said with a smile.