I'm Sorry, I'm Leaving.
Chapter 4
By: Sarah
It was a great night out. All the stars were shining and there was a light breeze. Cicily stepped out of the car and Joel followed her.
� I�ll walk you up.� Joel said, climbing out as he locked the doors. Dinner had been great. They�d sat there for over a half an hour after they�d finished eating, just talking. Cicily couldn�t believe she�d just met him. There was a definite chemistry between them.
� Dinner was really nice.� She smiled as they walked into the building. Joel nodded, tucking his hands into his pockets.
� I had a great time, thanks for inviting me.� He smiled. Cicily smiled.
� Thank you so much for helping me with my car.� She said. She walked to her door and leaned against it, not sure if she wanted to go inside and leave Joel outside. Not sure if she wanted to invite him in. Angie was at Will�s so no one was home and it was very tempting to just open the door.
� No problem�come in anytime.� He smiled. Cicily nodded. Joel took a step back as if he were going to leave before Cicily reached forward and gently grasped the sides of his shirt.
� Don�t leave yet.� She said, her voice soft. Joel smiled and took a step forward so they were only a few inches apart. Cicily slowly slid her hands up his strong and solid chest. She could feel his heart beating and it made hers race even faster. Joel pulled his hands from his pockets and reached up, touching the sides of her face. � I want to kiss you so bad.� He whispered. Cicily smiled and shook her head.
� Kiss me then.� She said with a smile. Joel laughed and then leaned in. His lips pressed gently against hers as Cicily wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling him closer. He wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her deeper. Cicily closed her eyes, letting her body soak in every touch. His strong arms wrapped tightly around her, his lips against hers. She wanted to stay like that forever. � Joel�� She said in between kisses.
� Hmm?� He asked, leaning down and kissing her neck. Cicily grasped his shoulders and smiled.
� Come inside?� She asked. Joel sucked gently on her neck and then moved to her ear.
� Come inside what? You?� He whispered his voice barely audible. Cicily shivered from pleasure and grabbed her keys, trying hard to find the right one as fast as possible. Joel kept kissing the back of her neck, his hands roaming up her shirt, touching her back and sides. She finally found the right key and quickly threw open the door and pulled Joel inside the apartment.
Once inside, Joel took Cicily in his arms and started tugging at her shirt, pulling it up over her head. He threw it across the room and leaned down, leaving a trail of kisses from her neck all the way to her navel. Cicily closed her eyes, fighting for air. Her hands were lost, all over Joel�s chest and through his hair. She pulled his shirt up and off and gripped his shoulders as he kissed her.
� I don�t�oh god�I don�t usually do things like this.� Cicily stated, her hands moving down Joel�s chest. He shook his head, his lips not leaving her skin.
� Me either.� He gasped. Gently, she reached down and pulled at his belt, trying hard to get it undone quickly. He groaned, and then smiled. � You are so amazing.� He said with a cheeky grin. Cicily smiled and kissed him, his lips tasted like vanilla.
� You�re not so bad yourself.� She said, pulling his belt away as her finger moved quickly to the zipper on his pants. He reached behind her and undid the clasp on her bra. Joel�s fingers moved quickly as he slid the straps off her shoulders. He touched her expertly, using his teeth and tongue just the right way, making her cry out. � Joel�� She said. Her mind was moving a million miles a minute, trying to grasp what was happening. Nothing had ever felt this good. She had never thought this could happen. Her mind drifted to Simon for a minute. This was cheating�she was definitely cheating on him. But�she couldn�t help it, she couldn�t stop herself. The way Joel was making her feel was not something she wanted to give up. Simon had never made her feel this way, not even once while they had made love. Or whatever you could call it.
� Where�s your room?� Joel asked, gasping. He stepped out of his pants, revealing dark blue boxers. Cicily smiled and pulled him by the waist band of his boxers, pressing her body against his. His chest pressed hard against hers and she took deep breaths, her arms wrapped tightly around his neck.
� We don�t need my room.� She said with a smile. Joel laughed, slightly shocked and pleased as Cicily pulled him down on the ground. Joel moved on top of her, running his hands up and down her legs.
� I have something to tell you.� He groaned, as Cicily started to rip open a condom.
� What�s that?� She asked breathlessly. She reached down, pulling his boxers off with a smile. Joel groaned again as Cicily reached down to put the condom on him. It took his a second to regain his composure and then he smiled, shaking his head in disbelief.
� I have a girlfriend.� He said, looking her in the eyes to see her reaction. She swallowed hard and didn�t say anything for a second.
� Well I guess having significant others is something we have in common.� She said with a smile. Joel nodded and then moved in closer to her.
� So this is ok, then?� He asked, biting his lip. He looked at her, completely vulnerable for a second. Cicily swallowed hard and pulled him down to her, shutting her eyes for a second as she felt him press hard against her.
� It�s more than ok.� She whispered, opening her eyes.
� I want you.� He said. She smiled and wrapped her legs around him, pulling him towards her. They both groaned as Joel moved inside her, using his arms to slowly rock into her.
� Oh god�� Cicily moaned. The sensation of the cold, smooth wood floor beneath her and the hot, fiery waves Joel was making inside her were amazing. She closed her eyes for a second, knowing that no matter how wrong this may be, it felt so unbelievably right.
Angie stared, open mouthed at her roommate.
� Close your mouth, you might catch a fly.� Cicily smirked and then laughed at her friend�s _expression. Angie shook her head, smiling.
� I�m glad I wasn�t here last night�� She giggled as Cicily laughed. She then frowned for a second, leaning back into the sofa. All day she had been thinking about Joel and the amazing night they had had together. He hadn�t stayed over, but he�d stayed for half an hour afterward. Cicily could still feel his hands on her body.
� What�s the frown for?� Angie asked, tilting her head to see Cicily�s face. Cicily shrugged at first but then sighed. Angie raised her eyebrow and sighed. �What happened after you guys did it?� She asked. Cicily checked her watch. It was getting late, almost one a.m.
� We sorta talked� it was a little awkward at first. I mean, we hardly know each other. But�yea�� She sighed. � We sort of came to the understanding that you know, it�s just sex. Nothing more, nothing less.� She nodded and glanced at Angie to see her reaction.
� So who are we trying to convince that it was just sex, me or you?� Ang asked, looking at her friend�s slightly distraught face. Cicily groaned and leaned back, rubbing her forehead with her hand.
� I dunno, Ang. He�s just really amazing, you know? And�I don�t want that to be it� but I have a feeling it might be.� Cicily said, her voice disappointed. Ang nodded.
� Why don�t you talk to him about it?� She asked. Cicily nodded, shaking her head.
� No�I don�t know him well enough at all. I guess it might have been a mistake to let things move so fast��
� Wait!� Angie exclaimed. � Was the sex bad?� She exclaimed, a slightly horrified look came across her face. Cicily laughed, her mind flashing back to those twenty four hours ago.
� No�it was amazing. The best I�ve ever had.� She said. Angie looked stunned for a second but then squinted her eyes as if she didn�t believe Cicily.
� You�re joking��
� No.� Cicily replied.
� Better than Simon?� Cicily nodded. � Better than Chris back in high school?� Cicily nodded again. Angie was surprised, yet happy for her friend. � Wow�that�s not something you can easily give up.� She smiled. Cicily laughed and nodded.
� What do you think I should do?� She asked. Angie thought for a second, not sure how to answer.
� Talk to him�� She said. � You gotta tell him how you feel.� Angie said, nodding her head. Cicily groaned, and shook hers, disagreeing.
� No, I can�t do that. He has a girlfriend. I don�t want to seem like the pathetic one night stand that wants more� I mean�I guess I should have known that he thought when I said I wanted to thank him for helping me, that I automatically meant sex.� Cicily sighed. Angie nodded.
� You really think that?�
� No.� She groaned, closing her eyes. � It just happened. It was a perfectly nice dinner�only minor flirting and then�BANG! He walks me up to the door and he was just�so sweet the whole night�I mean, the attraction between us was so thick. I don�t even believe some of the things he said to me.� Cicily moaned, burying her face in a pillow.
� What�d he say?!� Angie smiled, digging hard for the juicy details. Cicily blushed and shook her head.
� Just stuff�. I�I just don�t know.�
� Don�t beat yourself up for having fun for once!� Angie said, yanking on Cicily�s arm.
� But I cheated on Simon, plus�I have feelings for Joel!� She objected. Angie sighed.
� You and Simon�were never�perfect, Cic. I don�t think it would kill you to�take a break from him. He�s gonna be gone for two and a half more weeks! Have fun! You�re young�why should you be tied down to one guy- especially if he doesn�t know how to get you off.� Angie pointed out. Cicily shrieked and whacked her on the head with a pillow.
� I don�t know.� Cicily shook her head, and sighed.
� I think you should just wait and see what happens when you go see him to get your car. If he acts like nothing happened, then you should act like nothing happened.� Ang shrugged. Cicily nodded.
� I have to go get it soon.� She said.
� You have to go get some soon.� Angie laughed at her own joke as Cicily hit her with the pillow again.