Sorry if these does not make much sense, but I wrote it right after it happened.
Hey so guess what? Joe broke up with me again. So this is the last time, I always believe in second chances and that was it. Again I held it together pretty good, and after he left I started to cry but only for 5min this time. I called one of my friends and they had broken up with there bf too, just this last couple of days, very weird. So this time I am not as upset because I did not open up this time as much, I wanted to wait a bit to see if he was going to do it to me again, and I am sorry to say it was good advice on my friends and colleges part. What to do now though, it feels weird being alone again. I thought for sure this could be the guy, and I say could be, because it takes longer to know for sure. What I do know is I was in love with him, but he was not in love with me. Fool me once Shame on you, fool me twice Shame on ME. I feel a bit angry at myself for letting him do it to me again; I think that may be part of why I am not as upset this time. I blame myself for letting him do it to me, by giving him that second chance to lie to me. While I guess for other things it is going well, my job is still good, friends are ok. I am a little bit bewildered after the death of another Joe who came to my b-day party and my friend is quite upset. I am still doing well at handling things as they come, and a lot of bad things have been coming lately, so I am just waiting for that silver lining, somewhere over the rainbow in forever happy land J while I guess that is it for now TTYL Shawn
