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| My Life Story -- Gavaskar |
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It was energetic romance till it lasted. And I, whom people thought that would never change for anyone, found myself transforming each passing day. It was horrible experience to be in love with someone who
hurts you. The world was beautiful yet I felt I am incomplete. I was close but I would probably die of embarrassment to admit how much I truly loved her. But she expected something better. Our relationship starts to decrease and she started to go away from me. I never thought my relationship would crumble with such indignity. That is why I was devastated. I must, surely, have been self-absorbed not to see the signs.�� She left me all alone without even a single word. The world caved in. I was numb. I sent many SMSs, long emails, and called her 77 times. No RESPONSE AND NO USE. I waited for lots of time to pass, hoping to wake one fine morning and find her next to me. I was not interested in anything. Why couldn't she stand-by for me, whom loved her most in this world than her parents? Perhaps true love does not exist in this world. Maybe that is why tragic novels are written. That is why poignant music and poetry stay longer in our memory. I was robbed of peace. I sat and tried to think. It takes hours but honestly I still can't fathom what went wrong. I destroyed my self-esteem by pleading to her; please save me, save this relation. I reminded her of every pledge, every declaration, and every moment. The words fell flat. That whole destruction of trust dented my self-confidence. How could I let myself to be taken for a ride? How could I trust such a person? I asked myself again and again. For months I could not pray. I was angry with Almighty. I skipped all the functions and lamented at this world. I was with my parents yet not sharing my meals with them. I didn't want to talk with anyone, see anyone and laugh on jokes. She came to me one day and told
"I WILL SPOIL YOUR CAREER". Nothing more.
I shut myself in my room 15 X 15 room. I was confused. I didn't know what I wanted. I was dodged with ghostly presence. I alternated between fear and disbelief at my delusional state. I was crushed. But something inside me refused to concede. I cried , cried and cried. Finally I decided to stop seeing her and stop talking to her and srtart to concentrate on my career. MY LIFE TRANSFORMED and I realised that her Last words is the true key for my success I saw the pointlessness of relationships and embarked on spiritual journey and felt stronger; my world was sweeter; wisdom, humour and empathy grew stronger and sweeter. I realised that I want to achieve a lot in my life. I am now going in the right path , because I believe that God is there with me now I don't see the failed relation as an example of breaking down or emotional weakness. My journey is now very very fun and I have overcome all my fears and tears, I am in the right trach and I am going to do much more great things in my career. Dear Friends,
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