A Letter To My Children

My Dear Children,You can't Possibally Know How Much I Miss You All!

November 25,2004

Today is the third Thanksgiving Day, that I have been through; since Your Mother kidnapped You. It would be very difficult, to describe what life has been like for me, without all of You. Not a day goes by, that my broken heart does not ache. At first the shock and terror of your disapearance, was seemingly impossible to get through. and the concern of your saftey and no idea where to turn, or what next to do. I discovered you were kidnapped and filed kidnapping charges at the Sherrifs Office. I was very fortunate to have a true Christian Deputy to file my report.

That first Thanksgiving Day was impossible. Christmas followed with nothing but Sobbing and Tears. Someone gave me a CD by the Crabb Family for a Christmas Gift. The Song Two Little Feet was on it. I listened to it continually. It soon became my motivation to press forward because I knew You would need a Father who was strong to return to someday. You can't know, how many people world wide are praying for all of you. Last Christmas and Thanksgiving I could not be near anyone, especially any children. Today I tried, however I realized that I was in an environment; where I was not Loved at all. I had been invited, to be a part of a family; yet I was not truly part of their family. I finally stood up and left, thanking the host and went on my way home. I wanted to feel like part of a family, but it was just so obvious, that I was not. I am crying as I write this and I miss You all so much. I some how wish this could be all over now and I could hold you in my arms and kiss all of you and even smell your smells and never let you go.

I am so lonley. I will never give up on your return. I have a knowing in my knower that we will be together again one day. Just know, I am very alive and well. I am still a true minister of the Gospel. Remember all of the Miricles You have seen while I was in Ministry as your Dad. The Healings, The miricles of Money more than once. The things you can believe in because you know they are real in Jesus your Lord. I planted good seed in all of you. Remember The very first word Your Brother Solomon said? Remember it was as loud as he could say it; and it was HALLALUIAH! Yes I planted good seed in you and you all were annointed since birth.

I am still in Alabama and I am easy to find. No matter what you have been told these past few years, please just follow your hearts. Ask the Lord to reveal the Truth. I have spent alot of time and effort and money to try to find you. In the investigation, One of the nieghbors reported that he saw you all moving out of your mothers house in the middle of the night on October 16th 2002. He was very cooperative and helpful with much information. However some of the information was disturbing to say the least. Your mothers nieghbors saw a great deal of things that were inappropriate. If you are afraid you will be caught contacting me, I know you can trust a police officer or Sherrif. Please know, Once I know where you are; I will do anything I need to in order to protect you and bring you all home where you belong.

Remember, Never Fear! Perfect Love Casts Out All Fear. I know The Lord knows where you are and He is watching over all of you. I also know you all know I am your Father and I Love You all so much It Hurts!!!

In The Name Of Jesus, Come Home!

With all of my Love, Your Daddy!
Update Update Update Update

Update ...... April, 23, 2005

I continue with the knowledge that, Samuel will arive at twenty years of age on the 14th of May 2005. I cannot believe he is that old. I wish only that we could all be together to share , if only one more day together. I told my wife Teresa today that I would give two million dollars if I could but have One more day with you all. You would like Teresa even Love her as She is just like all of us. Teresa is a great woman of The Lord and my very perfect mate. She would fall in love with you each individually as I have with her biological Children. I trust you are all very well. I pray for you continually and trust the Lord with your well being. Love Dad! I miss You all sooooo Much!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!
Happy Birthday Samuel!!

My Dear Son Samuel, I Miss you so very much!!!
Today is "May 12th, 2005" ; and in two days you will become 20 years of age. I am overwhelmed as, My oldest Son is now going to be 20 years old. Son, I was 20 years old; when I traveled to pastor my first church in Alabama.

I was looking through all of your pictures this evening. I of course could not hold back the tears, and there was many and still are. I keep thinking , I must have done something wrong, but nothing availes itself. I cannot understand what evil , or wicked thing possessed your mother to kidknapp you all from me.

Samuel my Son! I just want to see you and be with you again. I remember how we would minister together, and how God used you so mightily as a young boy. I was blessed that my Son was already a true man of God as a Child. I do not know where you are, but I know God has his hand on you and your precious life.

You bless me my Son. I love you so very much and am proud that I am your father - Your Daddy!! I have been a blessed man to have shared life with you Samuel Monroe Wadsworth. Happy Birthday Son, Love Your Dad; Gerald Tahlequah Wadsworth. God My Father, Continue to bless my son Samuel and protect him I pray! In The Name of JESUS!!! Bring him back home to me with all my other children. Protect them all, and give them a knowing in their knower that I love them. Thank You Lord; AMEN!

Medical Update!!

My Dear Children; One year after I faound out I am cancer free, I had a new PSA Test. My new PSA Test was perfect and normal at .07....

Your daddy is cancer free and in great health. I Love you all , I am very easy to find here in Eufaula Alabama.

May 30, 2005

Today is Memorial Day. Yesterday would have been Your Mothers Wedding anniversary with me had we not Divorced in 1999. We would have been married 23 years, however eighteen of them; had already been very awful with her.
I have so many bad memories with her. The moment in time that haunts me more than most was when she asked me to sign papers to give you all up for adoption to different homes back in 1989 and 1990. She could not handle Samuel with him haveing a disability and being Autistic. I Could never give my babies up and she knew it. I pray everyday that your Mother has kept you all together and that you are all well and happy. I miss you all so very much. If You ever read this at any time, I hope you pray for me as I do for all of you. I need your prayers if for nothing else out of your love for me as your Daddy. I recently found out a couple of weeks ago that I have some form of cripling arthritis. The doctor does not yet know what type, just that we found it early enough that I can live some sort of a normal life with medical help and treatment.
I am of course believing that God is going to heal me as He has with the Cancer and other things. Teresa , My wife who I have mentioned to you in an earlier letter; is very assertive about that miricle comeing forward and faith in action. I Love you all and miss you all so very much. Solomons Birthday is next on July 25th. I trust he is still well. I don't understand this feeling but for some reason, I feel he died a couple of years ago. I pray I am wrong! I just want to be with you all again. I truly would give up every world item I have to have you all back again. The most confusing day in America is approaching soon, ( Fathers Day ) I will be thinking of all of you and will certainly shed some tears that day. But rest assured that more than anything I will be giving thanks for God allowing me to Father the greatest children any Dad could ever have in his Life. I have Lived because I was a Great Dad and was always reminded of that by many. I will also be continually praying for you all as I do daily. Be Good and Remember all the Good Seed I sowed into Your Lives.

Love Dad!!!!!

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