My Journey To Life
Don't doubt yourself if you're not the best; doubt yourself only if you did not do your best.
Entry for February 15, 2006
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I MAKE IT!!
 
Its hard to win a battle if   you face it alone by yourself..You need   batallion of comrades to be able to win , but do u need  it if its just  life's  battle?  This is my story.......just few days  ago  I never thought i came up with a decision  to  have courage that once and for all  I need to face,  some people  who try to  drag me and my family into a situation that create  heated arguements. Maybe  you will not understand what im trying to tell here on my blog because I  am in different culture and belief. Yet , I would  expound  about one mentality some Filipino people have, but actually not all are the same. We call it here Crab  Mentality..a person  who is envious and trying to pull someone back from where  it  came from ,This kind of mentality dont allow someone to succeed and they were happy for other  misery, shame,embarassments and unfortunateness.
 
It was  in the midst of stormy weather when my friend  came..when suddenly we talk about some bad intrigues that was morally  degrading . I was real mad and when  I  knew  it was a  police officer who told that bad things against me and my family  I  rushed  to his house and confront him. He denied it but   I  insisted , since he didnt admit..I asked  my friend  if she  is  willing to witness?  I  call my friend in court and  I  asked her to make me an affidavit.  I was furious    I rush a date to schedule a face to face  conversation  formally at our Barangay Court (lower court) so that i can forward it to the higher court.
 
When I   had a meeting with the community council member, we talked  about my problems before we discussed our agenda. They tease me that  Im the only  person in our town to sue a police officer, they never thought   I  can do it  but my decision was  firm to pursue it.  One night, I was watching tv and it was raining ,  my sister  knocked   my door and informed me that our drunk neighbor  was shouting outside and saying unsavory words for me and my family. I was at rage, but i dont panicked, my mother was scared and my sister was speechless, my  children didnt want me to come down but i really dont want to hide. I called the police then after that i went down and confront the man.  I was yelling at him since he yelled at me and i told him not  get inside his house but to face me and  wait the police. We exchanged   bad words.
 
After  that incident, i went to the police station for the report and get a copy for myself. so from that moment on I have two enemies...My mother cant  believe  i able to handle it, because  when my father was alive they always forgive our neighbors who did   bad things  to them.   Before we never mind these people, my father was good man and he always want peaceful life.Even if there are people who step on their toes, or even  spitting their human kindness, they have patience. Even with his brother and sisters he was good brother to them.Despite of it, he still the bad one to his family because they thought my father wants to  own  everything they have.
 
 
When my father was sick and  its almost a month bed ridden I promised myself  to take care of my family, to defend  and protect  them  with all  envious neighbors who try to pull us down or to those who try to crashed us  litle by little. I dont have a problem dealing with others because as my mother says I am like a politician  that can handle and mingle different  kind of people. I  am even  a good mediator. I helped lot of people even if i dont know them especially those helpless. I know i am helpless but they are  more  less  fortunate people than I am.
 
However, even if you do good things, you cant expect  some are pleased in what you do to others instead they put it against you.Despite of that  even in my parents case..they are good and nice people but they are not excused of the judgmental eyes of our neighbors which  I  store fury in my heart and hoping someday I will fight them.
 
I make it!!!  This month many things happen but I am so happy that I able to  face everyone who try to pull us down  with a courage and stand for what I believe its true. I stand if i do right things and I am not afraid who they are  if i am upset. For as long as my conscience is clear, for as long as i know what i do,  for as long as  I know the right way, no one can frightened me.
 
 
The good result  was, everything was resolved peacefully,  I was too hard for them at first..but when they ask an apology and amicable settlement has been agreed with both parties signature..I can  tell  the people here that my family deserve respect. No one is better than other.  Things should not be base on trial by publicity or intrigues but  things should be base in truth. We  should not rely on  what we heard  or see but we should  examine things based in truth with proofs.
 
No one is perfect, To err is human but  each  person deserves  respect. Dnt convict someone unless proven guilty.Give  someone benefit  of  doubt because  we never know  truth without  full examination on  matter. 
 
Now,  I am sure that they learn their  lessons  and hoping they will not do the things again to me and my family and to the rest of people they thought they can just crashed simply. I thnk God he gives me courage. because if not, i might let them telling bad things to us. Now they know whom they are fighting.. I am just plain woman, but i am full of courage and substance and i stand if i think i am right and i will fight for it to the full extent of life. Im righful in my own way and i will not harm anyone as i dnt want them to harm me and my family.  I allow someone to hurt me but not to my family. Thats how i care for them..I will not let anyone topple us down. We deserve Love and respect as  anyone wish for life.
 
 
PAX    et   BONUM !!!!
Peace and goodwill!! 
 
 
 
2006-02-14 14:10:10 GMT


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