MY LAST PIECE
Likely, everything else in this world. There are events in our life that sometimes we need to take a moment and recall it. Bitterness, Happiness, Success, Failures, Smile, Frowns and those emotions greatly affect us somehow. We learned to love, admire, practice virtue.Our inquisitive minds, eager for truth seek and try to discover the importance of life.
Sometimes, we tend to go beyond our reach, we live in fantasy and we forget the reality in life.For years of struggle, for diversity, for the bad and good times. I realized that there are just few happy moments in my life, mostly sorrows, depressions, sadness and disappointments. I can count the happy times but its hard to count the bad times.Nevertheless, I count it as blessings because with all those things i learned and accepted it with all my heart.
The Life i have had made me who i am. Oftentimes, i am hurt..but i take the pain even if it tore me apart. As far as I remember early part of 2004 when i started using computer as for Chat. I was a neophyte and so naive. But i am different from the woman i saw in a cafe. I started chatting from a cafe where u can see women in different walks of life. Some serious, some just have fun, some just like to play games.
I was very serious in my search because i believe after 4 yrs as separated i have to face a new chapter in my life. In fact, i wasted my 4 yrs unmindful about my heart. I cease to love, i dont entertain admirers and i really dont look for love.One time, I saw couple holding hands walking along the beach and some part of me made me wish..I wish it was me. When they get closer in where i sit, I saw an ugly woman with a handsome white man. At first i cant believe love happens with two different cultures, looks, status and app earance. But i know its very possible only its hard to believe if its true love that really happens between them.
Out of curiousity i tried my luck on the net, in just a month, i met many interesting people, some are bad and some are good. As for friendship i encountered some good people with good heart and respect with human kind. As the days come, i learned more and more. There are times that sometimes i want to give up because there are rude , perverts, user, players and really bad people.But i realized i dont need to count them because still there are few who make a good friend.
Hence, I cant deny the fact that in this life and the world we live we should face each day and make it as challenge. We need to fail as much as it is needed because its in failure that we learn and its in failure that we need to stand and start again.
Many tears i have shed, many people i have lost, many promises have been broken, many hopes unfulfilled ..at times, i told myself, I am strong and the time apart will go swiftly and i wonder why I must hurt this way.
I am special person, Im not just a pretty face or an object of desire, I am not a trophy you put on display. I may look innocent and happy as can be but beneath all of these theres pain that you cant see.
Though somewhere in the loneliness, somewhere in the emptiness I find myself feeling very loved and i realized its not the loving that hurts so much but its being without to someone you love. Heartbreaks exist as long as we continue to believe love but did we learn from it?
I am so blessed because if i lost someone, theres always better person that comes.Eventhough its not easy to trust again and to give all the best to someone you newly care and love, yet we need to open our heart to a new beginning.
Hopefully, I take my stride and with this new chapter, i dont expect more but i simply hope for the best to come.For as long as I live there are many crooked path that i need to go and face with a smile.Somewhere along the way i know a will find a new horizon, and with this new hope i am looking forward to the best possible way to make it come true.
This would be my last piece but if you want more from me..im still willing to write all for you and share to you what i feel and hoping it will touch your life.
PAALAM!!
Mahal ko kayo!!
