For a day of unwinding i feel a bit relieved of anxiety that cause by life.For me, hibernating is best way to get out of whats going on in your present life. Sometimes we need space for a breather and we need to empty our mind from all threatening thoughts that might give us reason to refused moving on.
Everyone deserves a break!!! from all the noises we heard, from all the pressures we have, from all the nags every husband gets from wives sound like a mother hen and from a honey, love, and sweetheart that always gets upset because of jealousy.As individual oftentimes we tend to set rules for ourselves and we overlook others needs just to satisfy our wishes and desires.
Usually we know some of the things that make us extremely upset but because we are blinded by the rage that envelope our impulses we tend to unmind what it cause and it ignite ourselves to do such foolish deeds.But in the long run we make it up , However, its too late for us to realized about the things we do.Anyhow, its life ..it creates chaos, it made us crazy sometimes and outrageous.
By the Way, lets forget about it first..Because i wanted to greet my mother a HAPPY BIRTHDAY she is 68 yrs old now. I love you NANAY!! i know i have to make it up to you. I remember when we always argue and we end up not talking because we fight. But i know you dont accept me telling you that i am right. I understand you now and thats why i dont argue anymore with you because i know what your feeling is. You cant denied the fact the you have favoritism among your daughters , before, i cant understand you.Nevertheless, Im very thankful to you because you brought me in this world.
I know there are times that you feel sad because father is no longer with you. Do you remember i told you that You need to accept whatever happend to him? I told you when i saw him at the hospital fighting for life? I really thought by that time we lost him. You were so helpless then. You dnt know what to do and i made decision for you but in the end you take it badly against me?
You dont knw what i feel everytime i argue with you because every words i say is painful to accept because its true. I cant imagine what happen then if i was not here. I didnt say give me merit for what i did for our family, i only want you to open your heart not for just one daughter. I understand you love us all and i understand some point of your life you care and love more to one child that you think that needs more than pampering, caring and loving.Only, i want you to be fair, even if know that she done wrong things but you try to close your eyes and you dont listen for anyone but only her.Why if i did a wrong thing you can say it on my face and why not for others? Nanay, i dont like what happen to my sister now she spent more time with other people than her children and husband. I play deaf and mute of whats going on around, as much as i do i dont want to meddle because she has its own life to live but its wrong!!
As a mother you have the right to tell your children what you feel and what you want. You have still the power to give some advises and some words of wisdom if in case we forget.Anyway you are our mother and whether we like it or not we must inject to our minds that you still know whats best for us.But as i see in the present situation you dont know at this point on how, you are scared but why? You dont need to be scared that we answer you back, somehow that is part of it, But we need to welcome your words to us as much as you welcome ours.
I am so proud of you because of your exemplary mind, i know you came from a family with high intellegence although you live in simplest life your mother want to. You have nieces and nephews that inherit your good brain and they excelled in their field of endeavor and everytime they mention your surname expect the attachment that its a family of bright people.The sad thing is we dont inherit your intellegence. Poor us.....my two younger sisters ..and the eldest..we are far from what you have. But im little proud of myself that even if i cant have the same brain like my cousins, i able to achieved something for myself and make you proud of me.
In due respect with what you done to me and to my children ..I thank you Nanay for all the things..May this day brings you a total happiness a mother could imagine. We will love you in your remaining days of your life and we will make it best for you for the years ahead. I LOVE YOU...
