Well, I am making another entry...shocking. Life is picking up for me...new job, a great man and a new place. If you did not notice the above "a great man" then let me point it out again. You know I was expecting my knight in all his glory but what I got was an unexpected knight that I have fallen head over heart for. I can only say that I have been IN LOVE once before to the point that I live with constant butterflies and thoughts of nothing else but that one person all day. It has been 6 months and I still feel my heart skip a beat when I see his face or hear his voice. We live together now in the new place and we are enjoying decorating together. And let me tell you that is a chore in it's self, two gay men flapping their arms around and floating around the place with ideas of what to do. I won't lie and say that we have been living a fairy tale and life has been oh so wonderful for 6 mths. In fact, I must say this has been the hardest relationship I have had yet and I believe it is from actually caring and working the relationship. I have always believed that a relationship takes a lot of TLC but sometimes if you don't have tenderness and that caring then the relationship is bound to fade. It becomes stale and boring and very dark. Love is great and Love can be grown in a relationship but being IN LOVE is something that is a pure blessing to a relationship. And yet that love can also cloud many areas of a relationship so you have constantly wipe those windows of the heart to make sure you have not lost sight.
Anyway....blah, blah, blah!
I know you don't want anymore love advice in this gay world of ours. I have noticed a enormous amount of visitors but I am not getting any e-mails. Let me know what you think or maybe some thoughts and concerns.
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11/04/04
How about that...2 days in a row that I am making an journal entry, just don't get use to it. I just wanted to say that I feel so blessed today. I was surfing the web and came across a web site for coming out stories and really felt lucky compared to some out there. You know coming out is not any easy process no matter what and everyone has their own story and their own time. I am just thankful that I did come out when I did and not wait another 15 yrs. I am thankful that I built my christian faith in God so that I would always have a shoulder to lean on. I do and always will wish in some ways that I had come out earlier in life but this was my destiny I believe and thankful for it.
So my thought today to anyone reading this...be thankful in life. Someone is having it tougher than you and has gone through the same shit and made it. So you can too! Buck up and find your happy place. Love you guys.
Oh also found an up an coming actor that I think is great and I have to ad...HOT! Check him out www.freakymartian.com/cheyenne/
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11/22/04
Hello again. Well it has been fun lately and I don't think I can share it all now but I will highlight. Things at home are going great. My baby is so good to me and we are growing together every day. We have been working on our dancing (country and latin). We decided to practice country dance because our favorite club has been out for construction so long that we have had to visit the local country bar alot and neither of us are that great of country dancers. We have been having fun though. And then the latin dance so that my gringo ass can get out and dance with my baby and his music. We have both been working a lot lately trying to gear for Thanksgiving and Christmas. With the new apartment we have been shopping and redecorating and you know that this is a gay man's haven. Well, I must be going but I wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving and remind everyone to dig deep for all that you are happy and thankful for this year. I know that at the top of my list is my "Bella" (bf's nick name meaning beautiful in spanish) and then my friends and family of course. I am thankful also this year for my new job and being able to get away from the restaurant scene again. So, I leave you all to counting your blessings and giving Thanks.
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