The First Time All Over
Again
By
Tracey
Claybon
Disclaimers: Carter Hall and
Kendra Saunders - Hawkman and Hawkgirl - aren't mine - they're
DC's.
References: JSA
23-25
For the first time in a long
time - in many, many lifetimes - I am unsure of how things will turn
out.
Those oh-so-familiar brown eyes
were the first things I really noticed on my return. Her eyes were just the way
I remembered - and yet, the confusion was new. She doesn't remember like she has
so many times before. And, she is so young this time, and terrified of me and of
what I represent.
Things have changed so much
from the last time I was here - it's all the same, but different - the music
(gods - the music!) , the food- about the only things that haven't changed are the nature of people;
politicians, - and how
complicated relationships can get.
I have lived over one hundred
lifetimes. I've seen over 4000 years. I've lived lifetime after lifetime with
Shier... KENDRA.
She's so familiar, but like
this new time I've come to, she is - like this time is - very different from all
the times before.
She wants me to give her time
and space to adjust to... EVERYTHING. To us, and to me.
I will give her the space she
needs - I'm taking the biggest of chances here - but the biggest risks are
always the ones most worth taking.
For the first time, I am not
sure I will win this battle.
But I love her and will do my
best to win her. Our love is the
center and bedrock of my world. I'll do my best to make our love the bedrock and
center of HER world - and, in the end, OUR world.
And, then, we'll both win.
Again.
-FIN-