| Chapter 11 |
| ***December 30, 2000: I ended up explaining my whole past to Ashley tonight. He wasn't exactly thrilled. He just sat there silently as I explained everything. I was crying and it looked like he was about to, but he didn't try to comfort me at all like he has before. The only thing he even did was sit on the curb with his head down. When I was done talking he just said he didn't have anything to say and left. I feel so horrible. I should've told him the truth sooner and maybe I would still have a friend. I can't stand myself anymore. I am tired of looking at all the disappointed faces around me so I have decided to leave. Nobody will miss me. I am done packing. All I have to do is drop a letter off at Ashley's and I will be gone. I don't know where I am going, but I wanna get as far as I can from everyone so I don't cause them any more pain. Ashley was sprawled face down on his bed when his mom walked in and handed him an envelope. "What's this?" Ashley asked investigating the envelope. "I don't know, it was on the doorstep sweetie." His mom said leaving his room again. Ashley quickly opened up the tightly folded paper and began to read. Ashley, First of all I really want to say thank you for accepting me into your life. You gave me so much more than you know just by caring about me. Thank you for trusting me even though I didn't deserve it. I went from being such a happy person with the perfect life and family to what I am now. It happened so quickly and now everything in my life is different. I don't want the pain I caused you to change you at all. You are the sweetest, kindest, most trusting person I have ever met and I don't want something I did to you to ever affect you. Don't stop trusting people, stay naive and wide-eyed as long as possible because when this is gone you'll miss it forever. I am leaving now, it's better for everyone. I can't tell you where I am going because I don't know myself yet, but hopefully I will get away from everyone so I can stop messing up other lives. Thank you for everything and goodbye. Love, Madison "Leaving?" Ashley said to himself as he shoved the note in his coat pocket and ran out the door. |