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    "Look, I know 'Prince Charles' is still staying there! He isn't leaving for another three days. This is 'Princess Diana' I know he is there. He just changed his name! Put me through PLEASE!" I begged the hotel clerk over the phone for the fifth time. I finally gave up. I went down to the hotel and caught a glimpse of *NSYNC eating in the cafe. I made my way through the crowded lobby and into the restaurant. When I finally reached the table Justin was gone.
     "I need to talk to him. I, I need to..." I began panicking. I did not want to lose him.
     "Sweetie, just keep trying. He'll talk to you when he's ready." A southern accented voice came from the end of the table. I looked up and found Justin's mom sitting in between Chris and Joey. I couldn't believe she was there, and after what I had done to her son still talking to me. I pulled up a chair and sat down next to her.
     "I didn't mean to...you know. I was just confused and, still am and I just need to talk to him, and apologize, and..." I began crying. She pulled me into a hug.
     "He knows that and I am thinking he's gonna talk to you soon." She said pointing across the room. I looked up to find Justin playing nervously with the zipper on his coat in the front of the lobby.

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     We found a quiet deserted spot in the hotel parking lot and sat on an empty curb. Justin fidgeted around as I spoke up.
     "I'm sorry Justin, I totally was confused and he kissed me so I just kissed him back...and I'm sorry. I just want another chance with you." I said now pacing in front of him.
     "You're sorry? I'm the one who should be apologizing." He said. I became even more perplexed. I gave him a baffled look.
     "Then why wouldn't you answer my calls or talk to me?"
     "I was embarassed. You made it perfectly clear you weren't ready for a another relationship, and I pushed you anyway. You were confused and I knew it, yet I kept on pushing. And then when you were being honest with me, I said sall those horrible things. I was angry and embarassed...and jealous. I want you to love me like you love him. He's a lucky guy. I'm sorry." He said putting his head down into his open hands. I sat back down on the curb next to him and laid my head on his shoulder.
     "So I guess we're both sorry." I said taking hold of him hand. I rubbed it gently with my thumb. Suddenly he pulled his head up to meet my eyes.
     "I've been thinking about it and I think you should really thing about what you want. I'm not going to push you at all." He said pulling my chin up with his index finger, "I'll probably be pissed at myself for saying this but considering your past, really consider finding a way to make your relationship with Dhani work. But just know I will always be there wherever I am." With that he walked away. After he said that I wanted him even more. He walked away leaving me alone with only my thought.