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    The next morning when I woke up, it was completely quiet. I slightly opened the curtain of my bunk and peered out. Nobody was around. I slowly got up and tip-toed into the entertainment area. The minute I walked in I was shocked to see Dhani sprawled across the black leather sofa. I didn't know how to react. I sat on the big chair across from the couch and flipped on the television. I felt his eyes on me and looked over at him.
     "Where is Amit and Marie?" I asked keeping full contact on the screen.
     "Out to breakfast. How are you?" He asked sitting up and moving to the edge of the couch.
     "Oh you know, I'm fine." I said calmly avoiding any eye contact.
     "Sara, I know you too well. Seriously..." Dhani said his eyes still fixated on me.
     "What do you want me to say Dhani?!? You f*cking dump me out of nowhere and break my heart then act like it doesn't bother you. I can't do that because it does bother me!" I started yelling angrily, "It bothers me that I lost my boyfriend and bestfriend. It bothers me that I have nobody to tell everything to, nobody to hold me. And it bothers me that it bothers me and doesn't bother you." I couldn't believe what had just come out of my mouth. Immediately I began crying. Dhani came and sat next to me.
     "Sara, I...I am upset too. I miss the way things are, but I know I can't handle myself with you. Especially when you are around other guys. I just, it just makes me crazy. And it's not that I don't trust you, but I still think our time would be better spent just as friends." He said putting his arm around my shoulder. I quickly shrugged him off.
     "Don't be like that Sara. I know I've lost you as a girlfriend, but I want to keep you as a friend. You were my best friend. Can't things just be like they were before?" He said as I looked over at him.
     "Dhani, I hope things can be that way again too. But right now, it hurts too much. I think I just need to be alone right now." I said getting up off the couch and going back into my bunk. I cried for three hours alone.

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     "Sara? Are you hiding out in your bunk again?" Marie asked poking her head into my bunk.
     "I talked to him." I said wiping my tears with the back of my hand.
     "Who?" She asked scrunching her face up in confusion, "Ohhhhh! Dhani! Sorry."
     "It just, I can't stand not being with him! Everytime I see him I just fall apart." I tried explaining to her.
     "Let me give you some advice. Out of sight, out of mind!" She said smiling proudly.
     "What?!" I asked in disgust.
     "Well when Blake dumped me, I found that avoiding him made me feel better!" She explained.
     "First of all, you and Blake were totally different than Dhani and I! You guys went out two months, then when he dumped you, you guys got back together. Then a week after that you dumped him! Dhani and I were together two years and I thought we were...I thought we were in love. I can't just go around avoiding him! He's my best friend, well at least he was. Thanks for trying, but no thanks."