| Andrew... |
| Andrew is my bestfriend. we had a big fight, and now we've resolved it :) below is things.. |
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| Tuesday, December 3rd, 2002- I wrote Andrew a note. a 3 page long note admitting that i've had feelings for him eversince last year.(he knew i was in love with him, but he, and i, thought those feelings disappeared until i got jeleous a few months b-4 when i found out he has a girl) I gave him the note during lunch and in the note, i made perfect sence that i didn't want to get the hook up cuz i had no chance. I had my mom's cell, i called andrew, but he wasn't home. he called back 10 min. l8er. i asked him what he thought about the note. he seemed a bit bitter about it. and he said some things that really offendid me, and a small arguement grew out. He made it painfully clear that i could never have him. Wednesday, December 4th, 2002- Andrew was exceptionally nice and concerned this day. Thursday, December 5th, 2002- The day was good... until i was walking to my bus, and i ended up walking behind andrew and his ex (the oe he WAS with, the one i got jeleous of) and andrew was walking her to her bus. i tried to think nothing if it, but it was one of those fatal accident situations where it hurts a bit to watch, but you can't take your eyes off of it, cuz she wanted him back after she broke up with him. so, her bus happened to be right in front of mine. and i sit in the back all the time, and i was able to still watch them. well, i swear i saw andrew looking at me looking at them, and then i looked away, and then when i looked back, 2 seconds l8er, they were kissing. they broke it off, and then she got an as he walked away... i broke down... my breathing got heaveier, and i couldn't supress crying long and hard. i cried for hours. i finally stopped crying when evan calmed me down on the phone, AND when i got an e-mail from NBC (but that's a WHOLE different story). Friday, December 6th, 2002- Andrew was exceptionally happy, and he's like, never really HAPPY. and i couldn't help but kinda be rude to him all day cuz it was either give a bitter shoulder, or break down, and i didn't want him to know that i saw him kiss her, and that it hurt me very badly since he knew i was in love with him. well, i said, "you seem happy. why you so happy?" "cuz today is friday, and i get to see someone tomorrow" "who?" "Danielle" "but i thought you were goin back out with amanda?" "...noo..." "well, then why'd ya kiss her yesterday?" "cuz she's feeling bad about letting me go, and i thought that would make her feel better" "DUDE!!! That's LEADIN HER ON!!! That's the LOWEST thing you coudl ever possibly DO to a chick!!!" "Don't take out your bad days on me!" then he walked off. he didn't know why i was pissy. he just knew i was pissed off at SOMEthing. then i hurt worse. Saturday, December 7th, 2002- nothing happened between us on this day cuz no school, and i don't even called him. Sunday, December 8th, 2002- same as saturday. Monday, December 9th, 2002- Andrew was pissed all day about somehting he wouldn't tell me about. I called andrew that night, and i asked him why he was pissed, then he said that it turned out good in 4th peorid because he got kissed, he has a date to the JROTC "Dining In" with kendra (a girl he liked at the beginning of the year and obviously again), and i HAD to tell him why i was pissy on friday. i couldn't keep it inside cuz i tell him everything. We got in a big arguement cuz when i told him that i cried when i saw him kiss amanda, he just said very incompassionately, "Sorry!" *sigh* that hurt as well. Tuesday, December 10th, 2002- since yesterday was shitty, i took 6 10mg of adderal (i don't recommend it, but i'm prescribed it), to make me feel better. well, when i got to school, my friend kandis and i went climbing in the gym, and i left my backpack behind, and then some fuckers stole my $10 that i was gonna use for christmas shopping for friends, and i was already pissed even MORE already as the day began. 1st peorid was alright, but in second, which i also have with Andrew, and his (now) crush, kendra, well, i was wanting to tlak to andrew, but he was talking to kendra, and i politely interrupted, cuz i needed to talk to someone so i would spare a knuckle from the wall, and so, i was talkingot andrew. well, it's not my fault that kendra's bladder started acting up that she calmly got up, and went to take a piss. THEN andrew started bitching at me about interrupting him talking ot a girl who he has no chance with, and so, he completely bitched me out. if i was a guy, i think he would have kicked my ass. then he told me to "NEVER DO THAT AGAIN!!!" and i told him, he CAN take it as my way of gettin back since i'm pissed (which i really didn't MEAN for all that to happen which, it wasn't a big deal that she had to urinate) and then i mentioned what i told him about thursday, and he threw it back in my face, and stormed out of the room. i haven't talked to him until dec. 31 came along. |
| The Fight |
| Now- i'm still really close to andrew, whom i do love, but on a different level called "bestfriends" :). |
| The Resolution- ok, i was minding my own buisness, wiht no opinion or thought of andrew on my mind, and i get an IM. to make a long story short, i tried to avoid talking to him. but i ended up talking to him though. he apologized for hurting me. we talked out what happened, and yes, now everything's honkey-dorey. |