All I wanted was to be loved

Disclaimer: I don't own HA! Never had, never will, so you can't sue me! *sticks out tongue*

Chapter 1: love me

"Happy Birthday to me" Helga sang in a shaky voice as she flopped onto her bed and sighed as tears streamed down her face.
Her parents had forgotten another birthday but this time it really hurt her.
Her parents were so busy picking up Olga from the airport and taking her to dinner, they totally forgot that they had another daughter.
She hated her parents for what they had done to her.
They forget about her like she's not even there! Her mom's mostly passed out drunk in the kitchen and her dad was always at work or watching TV and could never get her name right which always pissed her off.
Why? She sobbed, why can't you ever notice me? 
Haven't they noticed how many times that they broken my heart?
(Of course they haven't they're to busy fussing over Olga or getting drunk, or watching TV. Just face it they'll never love you no one will.
You'll be alone forever
'No they love me they just got a little busy that's all' she thought deafeningly.
(Why defend them when they don't even love you) the voice sneered.
She sighed the little voice inside her head was right and she couldn't take it anymore! She stood up and jotted something down on a piece of paper and placed it on her bed.
She ran down the stairs and out into the cold night.


Tears continued to stream down her face as she ran to the river, where her answers to all of her problems were going to be solved.

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Arnold sighed as he closed his eyes he loved nights like this nice and cool. He opened his eyes and froze there stood Helga on the edge of the bridge, looking like she was about to jump!

Helga closed her eyes as hot tears rolled down her cold face,
and felt the cool wind caress her face and play with her hair.
Helga took a deep breath.
She was going to jump into the ice waters below and meet her death it was the only way out of her problems it wasn't like anyone was going to miss her anyways.
"Helga?" her eyes fluttered opened and she turned towards the person who called her name. It was Arnold.
"What do you want football head?" She sneered.
"What are you doing?" He asked in confusion. Man he is dense she thought and smiled lovingly at him.
"I'm going to jump and kill myself" she said plainly
"What!? You can't your only seventeen!  You're graduating tomorrow! You have a life to live! You can't!" Arnold screamed.
"And why not?" she asked and looked at him like he had just grown five heads.
"Because your friends and family will miss you" Arnold said as the wind played with his hair.
Helga snorted "like anyone would miss me! No one ever loved me! My parents ignored me and my dad didn't even know my name! I have no friends besides Phoebe. I have no life to live!" she yelled as she hung to the bridge tears rolling down her red puffy face and the wind blowing her hair in her face.
Arnold took a step closer.
"We can work things out" he whispered and Helga just shook her head.
"All I wanted was to be loved and I never got it, they broke my heart so many times I think I don't even have one anymore!" she sobbed, with head hanging low and her shoulders heaving as she cried.
"It's okay" Arnold whispered and touched her bare arm.
She looked up at Arnold "I'm sorry but I have to do this Arnold" she whispered and he shook his head.
"No you don't" he protested
"Yes I do" she smiled slightly know it was going to be the last time she was going to see that football shaped head.
"I love you" she whispered and kissed him on the cheek.  That was the last thing she said to him when she let go and met her icy death.
"Helga!" Arnold screamed and reached out for her the last thing he saw was her golden hair.
Tears began to fall and he touched his cheek.

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The room exploded with clapping as Olga finished playing a piece on the piano.
Olga gracefully stood and bowed at the moment the family heard a big bang from the door.
"Now who in the blazes could that be" Bob grumbled and answered the door.
"What do you want?" Bob asked to the orphan kid with the weird head, the boy gasped for air then yelled.
"Helga killed herself she jumped off the bridge by the park!"
The room was silent then Olga gasped.
"Baby sister" she whispered and she fainted.
"Show me where!" Bob yelled and then they took off running, on the way Miriam managed to call an ambulance.

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When they reached the park the ambulance was already there, they searched for hours but no luck they never found her body.
"The current must of taken her down stream" one of the officials explained to the weeping family.
They pronounced her dead and ended the case leaving a heart broken family crying of her death.

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"She was an angel and a best friend who only wanted to be like everyone else, and I'll never forget her. Thank you" Phoebe left the podium crying.
They where at Helga's funeral. They had a casket in the front of the church empty for they never did find her body.
Arnold walked up next and cleared his throat.
"Helga was full of life and tried to love everybody without showing it.
She may have been mean and conservative, but deep down inside was a hurt person screaming for attention and love.
I guess finally she had enough and decided to kill herself, but before she killed herself she told me 'All I wanted was to be loved and I never got it, they broke my heart so many times I think I don't even have one anymore.' She then jumped killing herself; like she said all she wanted was love and she...."Arnold paused and glared over at Helga's family. "Never got it. Thank you."
Arnold left the podium but not before kissing the empty casket as he walked by.

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Months later.

Arnold sighed as he looked down at Helga's gravestone, and put sunflowers next to them and the grave read:
Here lies
Helga G. Pataiki
A sister, daughter, friend and most of all,
Someone who wanted to be loved.
June 4, 1988-June 4, 2006
May she rest in peace.

Another tear streamed down his face, they never did find her body
Arnold's hopes of ever finding her were still there but people just gave up.
"I love you too." He whispered,
To her grave and kneeled down to kiss it, when the wind blew passed him and it seemed to whisper,
"Arnold, please never forget me",
Arnold nodded he could never forget her. Never.

AN: Okay I decided that this story needed some work so I'm gonna fix. Next chapter is going to be a flashback to their gradation. I hope you like it! Tell me what you think!!
Thanx ~ ^_^~