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Well, last week I was doing great. This week though, not quite as much. I had prepared myself for it too. I said to myself, alright, I'm on a huge spiritual high right now, but with every high comes a low immediantly afterwards, so be prepared. But still there was no avoiding it. I've been feeling really spirutally attacked this week, and my passion, vigor and joy of last week has been replaced by selfishness, attitude and total disintrest in anything. There is a better word there but I can't think of it. I am working on it, but by bit to climb back again, but it's a slow process I guess. One might ask, is it worth it to allow yourself to go on a huge spiritual high if there is so often such a drop afterwards that takes time to climb back from? Absolutely, the more I can meet with God intimately, by far the better. I need all of Him in my life I can possibly get. And the more I experience God, the deeper relationship I come into with Him, the more frequent and strong these times of spiritual height will be, and the best part is you learn how to put on God's spirutal armor and prepare for that drop more and more, to the point where you get to a place of balance and flow where instead of a scale that shoots up and down, it begins to level out and just slowly, contstanly reach higher and higher. That's what I'm still working towards. If you read this, pray I'd be able to reach that place; that I'd be clothed in spiritual armor and be able to withstand the attack of the enemy after I've had close, intimate experiences with God like that. That's my prayer for this week |
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