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Visions inside my head captured in poetry, trying to create the illusion. Trying to live the dream.
Civil Angel '03
{ Buffy is confused about her feelings for Spike and it makes her think about her whole life... }
The last time it was an Angel.
Is it now a Devil in disguise?
I just cannot see you as evil,
someone I should despise.
How can I feel something,
that�s supposed to be bad and wrong?
When all I can be thinking
is this emotion so strong.
Why do love always go this way?
Why can�t I just be normal?
I won�t see the light of day,
until I find something real.
This just can�t be true,
again, a Vampire and the Slayer.
It�s too much of a d�j� vu,
and it was NOT in my prayer.
Why does this world like to play,
with a little thing called MY LIFE?
Why must they every single day
open the wounds and turn the knife.
So what are you this time?
A devil in disguise?
Why did you came into this life of mine,
if you I cannot despise?
Why must I fall every time
when these creatures come to me?
Have I done some enormous crime
and now the punished to be?
Why can�t I tell the difference,
between man and angel and devil?
Will it happen in this existence?
Am I forced to fall for the evil?
Come on, and drop the mask.
Just tell me how�s it to be.
Or what if now I should ask,
if the one in disguise is me...?