I find myself completely in the dark. 
I do not know if I deserve this. 
Never meant to cause any pain,
Always wanted to see you in bliss. 
Yet I changed my way,
And I feel myself in so much pain.
 
I don't know how to show,
That how sorry I am, I really am,
I don't know how to care,
To show my love, what I really can,
What should I do, tell me, dear,
Show me the way from this excruciating day.
 
Hit me, hit me hard,
But don't make me go through
This pain where even
Death seems pleasurable,
Hit me if you want,
But please, dear don't hate me.