Do I deserve

Do I deserve this 
To lose everyone around?
Who filled my life with joy 
And brought happiness abound.

These were the special people
Who gave my spirits a much needed lift.
When I was in the sway 
The never let me drift.

They gave me company
When I was in pain
Loved and liked me the way I am
From them so much did I gain.

I have learnt the meaning
Of love and care.
They gave my life a new meaning
And thus they became so very dear.

But then they are leaving
Leaving me in so much pain.
I'd cherish all the moments spenty together
My feelings for them would never wane.

One of them left today
Such a darling sis, she was mine
I find myself so lonely today
I don't have anything but to whine.

She was my 'counselor'
In her I found a good friend.
Now that she's gone
The world seems to have come to an end.

Do I deserve this loss
Do I deserve to lose all that's dear
Who made me happy always 
People who were so near.

I am losing one more friend soon
I shudder to think about it.
She is a part of my heart
I wonder, how I'd live without it.

She has taught me so many thingas
Care and selfless love.
I wonder why I have to lose her,
Is it something I really deserve?

Do I deserve to lose her?
Who was so near to my heart?
Why does it happen to me, always?
Why from the dearest, I have to part.

I have these questions in my mind
I don't know whom to ask.
I am in so much pain
I wonder, how long I'd last.

I wonder, why does it happen
Why it happens to me?
Anyone I find myself close to
Has to go away, leaving me.

But wherever they go
Always be happy and gay
I wish them all the best
They be filled with joy, in every way.

Let me be here
In this perpetual pain
I think I deserve this, for some unknown reason
I feel, it'd never wane.

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