| So, I never write rambles anymore, the writings that aren't angry-at-the-world-kill-me-now type. But after visiting Morgan's site again, I read her new rambles, and she got me into a writing frenzy! Only, I don't know what to ramble about.... I'll start with the obvious. Like my background? I was aimlessly surfing the net, like I seem to do every now and then, and I came across this. It's fabric. Isn't that cool? Well, I really like it. Well, cause I'm talking to Murray about Christmas, I think I'll talk about that. Christmas, to me, means family. I know, how cheesy, family moment, all that crap and all, but it truly does. Every Christmas that I remember and cherish, has been spent in B.C. I think of my cousins, aunts and uncles, grandparents, when I think of Christmas. And, I guess, my immediate family as well. But that was part of the excitement; I mean, Christmas without spending every waken moment with my parents. Being able to have a vacation away from them, in a sense. It seems strange to think of having Christmas at home this year. My best friend, Steph, is coming though. That helps. But still. It's strange. I miss everyone, my cousins; I miss Shari, I miss Anthony. I miss them all. I miss waking up at Brittany and Chelsea's, waiting for my parents and my grandparents while eating something fantabulous that Linda and Ron made, watching Chelsea and Brittany open presents, Chelsea being so excited that Santa came.. and then eating the rest of Linda's fantabulous fantastical breakfast [last year was homemade cinnamon buns with pecans.. yum!] with everyone. I miss waiting for Jon, Daniel and Shari to come from church, and then playing Cheat [again, last year], waiting for my turn with the queens. I miss going to Chris' house for dinner, and running around with everyone until supper time. I miss our big family dinner, where I sit at the kid's table by choice. I miss leaving with Uncy Guy, going to Daniel and Jon and Shari's other grandparents house, and playing Goldeneye with them, Anthony, Chris, and Joey. Or playing Hide and Go Seek in the dark, or, of course, Cheat. I miss going home with Uncy Guy and sleeping there for the night. Or trying to, what with Dixie, Trixie, the tree glowing, and no stepping room anywhere... I miss going to church, I miss seeing Anthony, playing hockey, and scoring. I miss wishing for snow with my cousins, looking at the hopeful grey clouds and waiting. I miss the excitement of seeing it snow, when we have feet of it back home, but all the same, it's magical to see it snow in B.C. I was looking forward to this year. I always do. It's my holiday excitement; I'd rather go to B.C. for Christmas than Hawaii. I was going to go to church this year on Christmas morning. I've never done that before, and I wanted to do it this year. Christmas doesn't seem like Christmas without B.C. It's worth all the tears I have when we drive back home. It's worth missing New Years every time, or spending it in Chris' house playing Rummoli. Christmas is my favorite holiday, for these reasons and more, not because of time off from school or work, or presents. I don't even remember what I got for Christmas last year; I remember being with my cousins. That's enough of a gift. This year will be different. I'll accept it. I have to. At least Steph will be here, and Shannon as well, and Skye, I hope; that will make it easier to handle. Actually, it's probably for the best that we stay home; so I can spend Christmas with friends. And New Years as well. But, I will never forget Christmas in B.C. I don't know when I'll be back, so I'll just have to cherish the memories I already have. They are always going to be a part of who I am and who I become. |
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