Gorgeous Poetry by my Exquisite Friend Ifa

Dreaming

I'm dreaming of being
A supermodel
then I could laugh in your face, and
they'd all say you were stupid for
throwing me away...
And maybe you'd beg for me to
take you back.

If I was a supermodel I'd tell you no way!
But the next day I'd say
Maybe. And I'd make you
promise
Never
to do what you did again.

If I was asupermodel, you'd
Never need to know how
much I
Miss you. You'd
miss me first.

I'm dreaming of being a supermodel
So then we'd watch MTV on
Your sofa
Just like before.

IfI was a supermodel
I wouldn't have to pretend I'd
Forgotten about you
when really I
dream about you every
night.

If I was a supermodel
I wouldn't mind waking up.

Instead
Tonight I'll dream I was a supermodel
So we could watch MTV on your sofa.

mine

The words come from the depths
Of my excuse for a soul
Don't say it's not me
That's not someone you know

Youcan't look in the dark
Of my mind, how I feel
Don't pretend you can know
What it's like to be me

You can't stand at my junction
Between me and the cold
You won't help me be happy
So just leave me alone.

Running

I am running
From a death I never knew existed
.....I still don't....

In my chaotic paranoia
Of a throwaway comment
          It was years ago-
          I doubt you even remember you said it

So why am I haunted at night
By a spectre of impeding fate
Giving urgency to life-
  I have to live every day
  I never want to die

I am running
From a chance to never do
everything I need to
Searching for a peace of mind
That I don't know I can find