shadowface :

 

i am in the dark

watching you

behind you

 

i am in your wall

from one side to the other

i am in your mirror

 

i am in the milk

 

i am in the television

 

i am in the rain

and in the drops of rain

 

i am crawling over your skin

at night as an ant

 

i am a whispering spider

hiding in the closet

 

under the towels

 

i am watching you

i am your dog

 

i am the roaches

under the sink

 

crawling into your mouth

while you sleep

 

and what are you?

in all your fine clothing

 

with your powder

 

and spray

 

and bottlecolor blond

 

you mean nothing to me

after i cum

 

nor before

 

 

i am not like you

and i am not you

 

but i am inside you

very much a part of you

 

you can't live without me

 

but you can live within me

 

i use you

 

and invent you

 

 

you

 

not i

 

nor me

 

 

i am the lizard and the monkey

i am both of these

 

you will not know

which one i am

 

when you see me

 

if you see me

 

but i will never be

 

both the monkey and the lizard

 

at the same time

 

and only then if ever

 

i will be

 

not the monkey

 

not the lizard

 

but

me and only me

 

 

the me behind my and under

i and over and around you

 

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there is a place where the beauty of a sunrise

is never taken for granted

 

there is a place where the water is clean and pure

 

there is a place where love knows itself for love

 

there is a place where oceans stand like mountains

 

there is a place where trees wrap themselves around you

for comfort

 

there is a place where the roaches sing arias

 

there is a place where the smell of tequila is understood

by the rusty gate on a tool shed

 

there is a place where nobody cries

 

there is a place where stars dance in the orchard

 

 

i have never been there

 

 

i do not know where it is

 

 

i hope i never go there