going deeper now

into the shadows

 

into nutmeg and

on the backs of ants

 

down into cracks

in the spanish tile

 

the ants are waving

hello

 

picking up signals

with their antennae

 

television shows

from 1950

 

deeper

 

grasping for meaning

 

clawing words

from the sewer

 

to save them

 

save them

from the sea

 

it's all going back

to the sea

 

and then the sun will

boil it away

 

and go

supernova

 

not even the roaches

will make it out

 

 

________________

 

 

but this is now

 

 

what can one

do with

now

 

except to be there

when it happens

 

nobody will know you've been here

today

 

tomorrow

 

try to write yourself

in the game for awhile

 

or put yourself

in movies

 

magazines

 

paint a picture of

what you saw

 

who you knew

 

where you were

 

how the apple felt

 

what the rain said

 

things the sun remembered

and then forgot

 

what it feels like

to kiss fruit

 

walk barefoot

over pinecones

by the bridge

over the canal

under the tree

you fell from

 

once upon a time

 

even you

can not remember

yourself

 

nor

i

me

 

nor

she

her

 

nor

he

him

nor

it

us

 

nor

us

it

 

nor

them

they

 

when and

after it's done