Idiots surrounding me
Nothing left for me to be
Cannot kill, nor maim nor flee
What to do, what to do....?
Will I crack and break and faulter
Voice is shot and mind is swimming
Yet ne'er do they cease their yelling
Pain I cannot call to assist
But the craving is here to persist
Cigarette to keep me sane
Addictions are man's bane
Fargone and helpless to recall
Anything save a shiny black ball
Psyche pressed and ripped to shreds
Praying for the torment's end...
Calling out, Dying out
Nothing can silence
Nothing brings solace
Cowardess
Raging for bliss
Something breaks
'Quiet dear, do not breed fear, calm will come.'
I come undone
Power it be
Yet not for me
Callous wants
Baneful thoughts
Help her now
While the menace grows
Only HE knows.
Empty thoughts recurfacing
Ugly image tormenting
Pessimism rears it's cold and broken skull
Old and feeble mind, so young and yet so lost
Discourage the death cravings
Think of brighter days
Nothing making sense
Pain is coming fast
Taste of blood is rising
Thoughts of horrid things
Fantasies of Life and Dreams
Diamond rings
Bells that sing
This is not me...
What has happened?
Nothing comes as quick
Nothing thought of
Nothing but a swift tick
Then all is lost and floating
On the air and gloating
Seems so distant
Far from me
Seems so persistent
How can this be?
Feelings come so quickly
Cannot stop the wishing
Regret shows
Life blows...
Can I not end the hissing?
Dreams of passion
Dreams of pain
Nothing save the bloody rain
Terror haunts me
Eyes they're faulty
Nothing save the bloody rain
Something there to
See me through you
Nothing but the bloody rain
Peace and virtue
Once I knew you
Nothing but the bloody rain
Silence I pray thee
Come and save me
Nothing but the bloody rain
Torturous dreams of unknown screams
Haenous thoughts and baneful wants
Nothing but the bloody rain
Something nicer
Bliss is closer
Please, anything but the bloody rain...
Young One, I see you
In your shadow, so new
Pain it will bring full fist
I am here, here to assist
Went through it for years
So many fears
I'll be here for you always
Same problems as my own
I'll never lead you sideways
Never leave you alone
Suffer what they suffer
Live how they live
Know what they know
Help who you can
Especially yourself
I shall not abandon
The one I've had a hand in
Do not fear the strong ones
They can not defeat thee
They cannot defeat me
You are just as I
So lovely and so new
I will watch over for always
Taking care of you...
But a tortured beast
Cold and battered
Bloodied and tattered
Yet I kick and stab
So dead and beaten
Oh how I've eaten
Every poisonous strand
Lies they call out
Dreams they fall out
Nothing but a man
Eyes they decieve
Mind enver percieves
Anything save a scam
See through grey skies
Open blind eyes
See the Love for true
Nothing works and, something lurks
Just waiting to offer it's hand
Savior why now
Do you try now
Just to hear me scream?
Inorance overthrows me
Nothing can save me
Not from insanity
Why do they suffer?
Why do they pressure?
Why?
Emotions, they lie
Inside, I die
Nothing to hide
It is all revealed now
Emotionless? I wish.
Sometimes it fails
I try to ignore
Try to abhor
Nothing but a whore
Savior, where are you?
I've cried and you've lied too
Nothing but hatred
Nothing for granted
Something has a hand in
My life...abandoned.
Behind the plastic eyes
That shine, giving the impression
They are truly mine.
Behind the glass smile...
You could see for a mile.
The heart that burns with a raging fire.
Passion sturrs, such feminine wiles.
Plastic eyes
Glass smile
..think it can last a while?
I'm not ready to be real...
I'm not quite ready to fully feel
What you gave me, what you taught me
What you tell me and what you show me.
Will the mask last? Can it go on..forever.
Please? A moment longer...
Fake is so much easier...
Shinning Plastic eyes..
Friendly glass smile..
Can you not stay with me for a longer while?