i am this. it is me.
plain and simple.
i am a seeker of passion. i can see it anywhere--tv, magazines, people, songs, shoes, little green men--i look for it everywhere.
you can't change me.
i have an enormous faithfulness to things i believe in or value. so much, it scares me. and i pour everything into it.
sometimes i feel like people can't handle who i am.
but i am who i am. (i'm not popeye.)
i get scared.
and i mess up.
please love me anyway.
i'm laid back but i'm not boring.
i love to rock out. it honestly breathes life into my spirit.
i pour a lot of my thoughts and heart into things and people--more so than i'll ever show on the outside. and if you do see it, you are a privilaged few.
i have this special talent of vividly remembering feelings and emotions from the past. sometimes that really sucks..hehe.
music is my main passion. and fueled by the holy spirit, it's what i live for.
i know who i am. but occasionally i think maybe changing myself would make me more lovable or more valued by people i'm close to. especially those that i feel i've lost.
i lose sleep over stupid things...and sometimes not so stupid things. my mind sometimes doesn't take a break.
i'm sensitive, this much is true. i'm aware of things you probably wouldn't ever notice. but it's who i am.
i see things others don't.
i've got things buried just beneath the surface that i don't talk about--dreams, visions, passion to see certain people live their dreams--just waiting to come out.
do you know me?
i long to be known inside and out, and i'm discovering that the one person that could ever know me that well is Jesus himself. it's a hard discovery.
i've been hurt. deeper than you know. and you may even know a lot.
there have been months lately where i've cried every single day.
but don't be scared. : )
i desire the kindred spirit to spirit connections with people...as few as they are, it's what i long for. cuz those friendships are worth more than gold.
i've got a lot of fears right now.
please be patient with me.
but i'm also slowly seeing the promises trickling in.
i like to be real and transparent...as scary as that is to people (and to me sometimes)...it's necessary.
i feel misunderstood occasionally.
i love to laugh. hard.
i'm peter pan. i'm not gonna grow up.
i seem serious and deep, but i totally contradict that on a daily basis.
i take life fairly seriously, but that's changing. (see? contradiction!)
i've been bought with a price. and as much as i wanna turn and do my own thing, i can't. i signed on the dotted line...and here i am.
love me and embrace me for me. it's all i ask. it's all i can be.
