My soul in darkness cries
Oh higher self
Self of myself
Bring me through darkness to the light.
Inside the peices falling away into oblivion
An abyss of infinite slowly sucks in all the stuff of universes
Syphoning it out as needs be
Glittering like gems of pure light
A fire stolen from above
From the beggining.
"This is your angel
Growing with every new experience
This is eternity
To which all things come
Crystallized in the Mind of Man
The Godheads paradise
Death is a new phase,
A recording
an ininity in itself
You fear that which you must become
You HGA is death and after death
Before death
It is the part that is and is not dead
What u know of as death is actually your life
As your life appears as death
Hell is on earth
as is heaven
And both are inside you
Aiwaz is the messanger of NAZHL
The warrior of light
The manifest darkness.
Darkness is a faculty of man
As is evil and illusion
All that is is KIA
All that passes away, all that is to become only IS
All at once
In this moment is self
Expanding and contracting at once
Balancing a point forever
A motionless motion
A silent silence
Nothing that is not.
There are 2 of you, as there are 2 of everything
The negation of self is self
Ther HGA is an image of an image
It is yourself made perfect
And teh realization of harmony and beauty.
It is an image created by you to realize you."
My mind truns upon itself
As a hand reaches down from above
The hand tyruns a wheel.
This wheel is existance, an interplay of light, in every dimension of every level.
It seems as it is trying to tell me
That all that can exist does exist
We are one spoke of this wheel, Our reality is oine of infinite realities
And these are all turned by the Hand of KIA
The Higher Self
The HGA.
In the name NAZHL is all this contained. N is the energyof life, the snake biting its tail. It is three forms harmonized in one.
Nun means a fish, that which swims in illusion, breathes the waters of death.
A is the holy spirit that descends from this fish, the Child harpocrates
the root of breath
The begining and end of consiousnes
Being both one and nothing
Z is the sword, the division of this self into two parts
The higher and lower
The brotrher Cain and Abel, for we must sacrifice the lower in order appease the higher
The mark of cain was the mark of the beast
For god did not hear until blood was shed.
Thus was I sacrificed by my brother the Beast
Thus did I become the godhead which I invoked.
H is the Emporoer, the king and judger
The sword dedicated to love, unto nuit, and the method in which this sword is attained.
This sword is the sword of all legends in all stories,
Though it is greater than any of these
For every story is a reflection of its truth..
Another voice.
"Rememebr though Camelot
Rememeber Though Jerusalem.
The sword in the stone holds the secret.
The lady of the lake (this lake is death).
The sword from the mouth of Christos
The sword of judgment."
L is Justice, the work accomplished therein
the balance of babalon and the Beast
Is teh gateway to THE angel
These in balance,
Thus is the balance upheld by the sword of two edges
Thus are Her eyes fixed on him who hands are the sword.
thus is the sword Love
For not by loving her canst thou come to her
Through self-love
Through self in self
Thus art thou Ahih Ashr Ahih in the abyss
Thus art thou existance
Who has bound himself only to himself.
Prometheus was chained to a rock,
The rock of eternity
And his son,
Who is his angel
Did resue him with the light he stole.
This fire is the creative forcce
The fire of creation which started it all.
This is QDSh the holy fire of spirit which burn up all things and recreates them.
All this in silence. And again it comes
"In the begining of all was I sent forth to judge.
By my inniocence did I blind the weak
By My softness
Did i stop all men
Save those who became me
For I am Love
Thus am I I overcome.
All come from me and all come to me.
I am self-love
Thus art all men one in self-love
Thus are all men free in a world of bondage.
The cross is my generation
The rose my rebirth.
I came to judge the nations
And judge them I have
For the birth of my spirit is inside,
And my judgement is fixed on the eyes of them who are not blind.
To those who retain hope
Who have not trampled all under their feet
Them will I burn up.
Thus is my formula AGAPE
The massacre of the innocents by the innocent.
Man knows not who he is
Nor is man aware of my coming
For the prophet of the lord is as a theif in the night
He shall steal away the children
As a piper
And lead them off into the gates of dawn.
Destruction will come to one
Salvation to another.
alas, for those who wish for salvation are damned
And those who desire not shall be saved
For they are the kings of the earth
Having shut themselves up in the fortress of my might
Those who have defied the laws of men
Who have stuck to my law
By sticking to their own law."
the voice ends, and before me I see a rose,
It would seem at first to be red, but it grows to the Black rose of 156 petals
thus is my bride 156
"As is my father and mother. i too am 156.
In a differant disguise must thou find me."
After this image I see flashes of white blue light like lightening
A figure rises from a sea, and obscures the light of the sun
Phantasms are dancing all around
I see fire begin to fall from the sky, and a sword issues from his mouth
With it, he rends the sky, and a scarlet gash opens
"The way to my bride is for the children only
For they are one with the mother
And thus one with me."
Next I see he also has a vagina as he lifts his robes
And a mighty river of blood pours out over the earth
"This is the blood of the saints which I have hoarded for my own.
This is the wine of madness
And the draught of ecstasy.
I have ground the bones of all saints into it
I have given the last drop of my own blood
But it is only I that shall drink of it.
To the unchaste it shall burn as acid
To the saints it will bring madness
But to my children who are as myself
It shall bring the godhead of my father into their wanting mouths.
They have screamed at the sky
And cursed the father and the son
But they have held tightly to the holy spirit,
Screaming only why to the abyss
Shaking their hands in torment of their lost love.
to them am I come to bring salvation.
To the others,
I tell you only this.
You shall destroy yourselves if u do not give up your ways.
thse are not my ways, nor are they the ways of my age.
these are not love,
these are the enemies of love
And thus shall i come against them and destroy them
For those who are the enemies of Love
Are the enemies of the Law
And the Law is for All.
I have given you a law to govern
So I say to all others now
Govern those that govern
Caste down them that are on high
And those that are on low shall be lifted up.
The Upright has become averse,
And the averse has become the upright.
Curse you who heed not these words,
For you shall not live."
With these words the sea rose up aroun this figure, and the blood mixed with water flowed freely over the earth
And screams mingled with fear and laughter were heard.
"All shall be as they are, and not other!
This is the faith of the saints. This is judgement.
For none can run from the eye of my father on his day of wrath.
For none can hide from themselves.
Remember these my words.
The angel has come
The darkness made light
The conversation takes place.
All shall know me through my prophet
Yet he is a vessel for what is in each of you.
Know that and rejoice
For his law is Love under Will.
the law to unite all of man.
He offers you light, life love and liberty!
He gives freedom and bliss and ecstasy.
I have hidden him under a dark mask
Yet is he as a child now, made pure.
Success is his proof,
And courage his armor.
He will move on in my name
And shall overcome all.
For this is my kingdom
And none but I shall rule it.
Beware I say
Beware lest ye follow the one and loose the other.
Do not be mistaken
My prophet is as a finger pointing to the moon,
For if u watch the finger
You will miss all of my heavenly glory."
The voice fades, and my mind slowly returns to itself.
There is a chariot now, and a man in golden armor smiling at me.
I know who this is and I give thanks for him,
The warrior of the chariot of the gods.
I move closer, around the 4 sphixes that drive his cart
And i look into his cup.
Within it, in its ruddy glow is all of life
All of existance
All love and all being.
It is the Holy Graal,
The cup of our lady,
Whos great and holy name Mary has been blashpemed,
For she is the whore,
The bride of Christ.
Thus has she consumed all in her whoredom,
And mixed its blood into her cup as an offering to the Father.
Thus is love.
Let this be a spell to bind the unbound
And free those who are in bondage.
Let the end descend.
I now consume myself into a blue egg of silence, and enjoy its glory.
AMN.