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| Oct 28th 2004 Dear Jason We met in April 21st 1993, on my 24th birthday. I will never forget knowing you on this special day. You came to my previous company and were introduced to me by Cherli Foo. You were always smiling and approachable at work and I have overtime grown to be very fond of you. I was young, innocent and naive. Cherli was like a great mentor to me; she taught me many things and opened up my world. It was a transition for my growing stagel, things started to change as I grow. I began to see what I like to do in life and my feeling for my then boyfriend - Freddy Sew, changed too! We were having some problems staying together with his family; things were getting worse, and I grew apart from him. Jason, you came into my life, my first stray in a relationship! For the first time, I realized how agonizing it was to sleep with someone I no longer love. I felt very bad, Freddy has been such a nice person to me and I betrayed his love! I was lost in love and I thought Jessie Ong (that woman incharge of shipping) was more mature and I told her about us; thought she might help to console me but she brought this matter to Cherli which I knew would bring difficulties in my work. Cherli begun to lecture me everyday and adviced me not to see you, she blamed me for betraying Freddy; she blamed that I didn't put my heart at work , she added salt & pepper between us making me feel that you are such a crook, she made everyone in the office believe that I'm a vixen. For over half a year, she didn't stop nagging at me. Every morning after she made her cup of coffee, she would asked me into her room and speech till noon time! Then in between noon she would asked me into her room again, finding fault in my works and started to attack my life! Cherli transferred all my works related to your company to another merchandiser; as there weren't many merchandisers that can draw, she made me drawl for the whole department and stayed back in the evening to clear my own works. Cherli had been such a culprit that she called Freddy and told him that he deserve a better woman; at work she insulted me infront of my colleagues for personal reasons. On one hand she was acting like she wanted the best of me.This was mentally tortured and I can never forgive all these peoples up there pretending they know so much about life. I decided to marry Freddy, the man who love me more than I do! I thought I would feel more down to earth feeling settle down finally, but I was not happy, I grew apart from him further and further away All I wanted was just to be with the person I love, I wanted to tell Freddy I was wrong and I was sorry. I wanted him to be braved to go separte way, I wish for my parents-in-law forgivness and my parents to understand me. Everyone pinpointed at me and non of whom I knew were ever in my shoe and went through that emotion and struggle of giving up someone you love. For me was a battle alone Freddy and I had puchased a new house way before we were engaged, our house arrived when things were in a mess. Despite being drained too over the years, Freddy went through for me to renovate the house! Knowing I had bad times he allowed me to stay in our new house till it turned 5 years maturity period to be able to sell to the open market by law. At the time when I needed money the most for my new house Cherli FIRED me! She said she couldn't bear to see my cold attitudes and I was frequently 15 mintues late for work. I was jobless for three months, taking money from my mum and my younger brother to pay part of the housing loan; I also rented out two rooms to furnish the house. Living with very little, I terminated one of my policy to cut cost. Freddy helped me on the property tax and conservancy charges. Wasn't sure why Cherli left her job too not long after and was working for a beauty salon. Very surprised she called me said that her job agency was looking for an account service executive. I didn't ponder much to take up the job, I needed the money. Cherli might have felt guilty I think? To be continued |
| A Letter for Jason Tee |
| In memory of my 7 Days with Jason Oct 8th -16th 2004 in San Francisco & Las Vegas |
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| Viewed from Room 2016 Pan Pacific, San Francisco. Overseeing Golden Gate Bridge |
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| "..No one else, love, will sleep in my dreams; you will go, we will go together over the waters of time. No one else will walk through the shadows with me. Only you, my evergreen, ever sun, ever moon." Pablo Neruda |
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