lost in you, lost forever. you left as i became no more. i put my head down and walked away with your pain. you are still around but not. i dont want you to. what can i do. the soft touch the warm hot chocolate. everything is cold. i want to feel again. comfort and clear. Tranquility, the water. you. my heart. i dream of the perfect day then wake up. i lay and cant breathe. i go but i stay. i laugh sadness. i dance still.
i want to be somewhere but i cant. i need to yell and ramble but i am mute. more poison. i am not dying. the pain goes in and out and i am a victim. the
smiles, the comfortness. i dont get it. i crie
and i want to live and make sense. i want to wake up. i want to believe. you are the only thing that made it ok. i made you ok. i am not and you are not here. where are you. stay. i am trapped inside you. you are there with me, but i am not with you. open wounds i am
shivering.
i need a warm blanket i cannot find. i want to be with you on your journey but you don't. i also want to grow. i see you care but its not enough. please go away and stop letting me hope for more. a kiss that has no desire a love that has no place.
a desire that is dead.
dead from leaving it to suffer and die.
help that was never called, problems that were never said. lost passion. a clouded judgement. a broken promise. a future that is gone.
no morality, no intergrity bound together. i am blind, i cannot see. i see a beautiful being even though its ugly in my dreams. it bites me un knowingly. i do not want to be with
things that hurt me. i do not want bad things. i want to lay in soft
clouds again. i want you to say those words.
Being comfortable is ok, being ambitious is up to
you.
i am only here to help. seein you laugh refreshes me. let me always be there. ah no you turned your
back and i must now, i dunno. i am better and i can only be with a warm honesty.
what is innocence?
gentleness, simple, being real. thats what i need, thats what i am.
you cannot offer me that. i can but its no good for you. that is a shame. i never loved as much. i never hated as much, i never stayed and endured this much. you are the sadest thing to come into me. a fool for you, a unclear mind, a sour taste. a great movie that makes no sense.
a
bird that can only fly alone
a happy siamese twin.
amelie, an island in the sun, rowing, warm laundry, fresh cookies, sigur ros, feb22
we fit, but the puzzle is a m e s s.
I
love to
love, i
love to give i
love for you to smile i
love those things too. roomies, a team, a passion, happiness. stabilty equals seperation. comfortablity means stillness. why must they be that way. relationships all
equal
those things and you will understand and know it someday. art and relationships dont mix ?
Be alone for great art, be hectic and confused to create greatness. Potential is within. i was
sacrificed
and now i am gone. who you are is what you portray. i dont know who you are now. i did and i loved. i dont need you and your
lies.
sometimes i do then i don't and then i put my head down. i drop the phone.
i have things that are
great and i am happy with how i live. i hope you can too, i wouldnt be. withdrawal,
deceit and
hiding is what u know. help yourself. you need to grow up.
you dont know
love.
love is in
front of you and chose to kill it and
run.
you dont deserve it and that is why you are scared and ashamed. i deserve better. ive been blind
way too long.
i know the real you. you will realize what you threw away someday. In the long run life is very
simple. People are just
people.
And they all want the same thing. Tomorow will be the first day i will truly be
awake.
i have so much more
to give. it just wont be you anymore. i will stop dreaming of the
perfect phone call. ive done wayy too much. its time for you to surprise me. i am not scared, i am confident and i can stand.
it is clear.
i gave you my all and you couldnt even be honest with yourself or me.
i gave you me
and now i carry your burden.
i dont want it.
Keep what is you and i will still be me. i will be good regardless. i am strong and lost in my feelings. But i know i want to be happy, i want to make sense. Its the only thing i know.
A silent phone, i am not waiting anylonger. Shall i send this or not, it doesnt even matter. i wrote enough of these things and mayb you should see what is in my world. i like to share. i want to reach you. But you have your own things and i will jus leave it at that.
It comes to an end and it changes. i wonder and think and cry. We were once so beautiful and now nothing. i do not know anymore. Each second withers us away and i could never erase what is in my heart; you.
