school is gay. my exams were all really easy pretty much, except well like i duno study of religion was a bit gay but i dont get aboriginal spirituality. and chemistry...hmmm....HMMM!!! the A standard questions should just generally die and yeah nothing more to be said there as i sort of knew that would be happening. so i guess im fine. i know i did well in ipt cuz we alreayd got all our assessment back. i will just revel in it and ignore other subjects!!
AHHH this is so good phillip from work went to canada and he had a subwoofa (woofer? i have no idea on the spelling here?/) like a good one and i was like HMM well i guess he wont be using that anymore...and i got it! tonight me and dad went in there and i took it mmm you dont realise how good my music sounds on here. i am basking in its greatness (basking in its collective glory as rupert would say lol). nudgee formal is soon, im going for the dramatic look. im re dying my hair black and then umm dark red one shoulder dress with like this black rose thing on it, thats sort of hard to explain so im not going to explain it ill just put pictures on here! the issue of formal is just a bit not very excitably great in my mind at the present time - no explaining, its not really internet type stuff hahaha. so ill just leave it at that.
benson hey? yeah. well ben is ben. i think ill stop reporting on him here cuz nothings ever gonna happen there so yeah lol im sort of over it he can do whatever. (how good does the satisfaction song sound on the speakers) yeah like i duno hes awesome and i like him and everything but i hardly know him and HEY he doesnt like me hahahaha. and i hate guys so like having a boyfriend is too much hassle so im fine without him (as alkaline trio have said : "i'll be just fine without you!") and yeah. ahhh i love my friends! my group and briars group, they are all so good. i had the most fun last friday we saw the day after tomorrow i reckon its pretty good. harry potter was good also! ok i have to go because i have to get up early for work experience yet agian so yeah bed will be calling me!
i hope your LOVING the super updated diary thing. excellonte and slash or excellente. haha.
OOO wait i almost forgot how crazyness. the butterfly effect concert!!! ahhh it was on sunday night it was awesome. i mean they sound a bit the same but they are pretty good and it was a pretty good concert, although it was in a small place and the speakers were up way to loud for an area that small my ears were SOOO SORE it was like the air was really realy heavy with vibration and sound waves or whatever ... like my hair was vibrating against my face i was like bloooody helll my ears! oh yes i just got $20 what do you suggest i spend it on? there are a few options:
1. save it 2. hair dye (im doing it anyways but you konw...timing's important 3. muse CD 4. vans warped tour 2004 CD
WELL WHAT ONE HMMMM. i guess you cant really answer that! ahh wells. you will find out in next entry THE SUSPENSE IS KILLING YOU I CAN SEE!!!!
hmm well anyway i am sure you are DYING to know the latest information on the ben situation. or benson even. yeah well let us say that i have become even more bitter and twisted towards guys. MORE BITTER AND MORE TWISTED. did any of us think that it would be possible for this to happen? no, no we did not, because i was so bitter and/or twisted before that it seemed almost impossible that it would get worse. sadly this is a mistake. guys are screwed up. seriously, i mean ... ugh. their brains are like retarded, although i suppose it could possibly be me. i go for the wrong people totally, those that like me i dont like and then the ones i do like dont like me LOL ah hahaha i am destined for a life of hating guys. hate them so damn much! i dont explain these things enough. but i will not trust a guy for a very long time that is for sure. ugh. it just sucks becuase i usually only half like guys but ben is like super cool, although i cannot explain why. he is "too busy" for a relationship and likes being single. mm hmm, yes ben, so thats why you asked for my number at the dance. i really do see your reasoning (i actually dont, i am being sarcastic in case your too stupid to figure that out). strangely enough though i dont really care as its good knowing where i stand. its better than it was before so yeah ... positive side! he said he wanted to be friends though and HA he should not have said that as i will follow ti up and i will go places with him and he will be like, dammit why did i ever say i wanted to be friends! then, one of 2 thing will happen. 1, i will successfully make myself hate him so that i no longer care very much, or 2 HE WILL LIKE ME. lol. yeah number 2 is never going to happen. and this is if i can be bothered to try and go places with him. ill see him at the formal though so it will be like ... hmm well than how awkward. ahh well. i shall survive!
one giant paragraph. if ben ever goes here, i will shoot myeslf lol. actually i wont. hmmm. HMMM. gym dance was the other night it was good, i realise i dont think i have mentioned mark in here. hes cool just a person from marist like one of my friends and i met one of his friensd that has good taste in music be excited! its actually...not that exciting. yeah see the guys that are my friends, i have no problems with. lol rupert was there too he hung around us quite a bit he is the coolest ever!!! well anyway i think i will do some biol study as it is tomorrow and yeah. nerd girl must take over the geek girl ! afi are the best - must buy all their cd's i only have 2! natahn got his tongue pierced again! goodbye
let me see what else. guy situation aye, thats always an intersting one. as you may have guessed from previous entries im not the biggest guy fan at the minute ("minute" meaning about a year) for a number of not well explained reasons. however there are exceptions, for example the nudgee dance was last week and the best person ever was there..ben, ahh, coolest guy on the earth but as im not hte coolest girl on the earth it sort of sucks to be me, lol. i think i come accross as an obsessed freak, ive really got to stop that from happening. especially as i dont even know him like at all and most importantly am not obsessed, or a freak! i wont be going into details here, but let us just summarize with this point: dont go for guys that are totally way out of your league (i generally hate that saying but only if its superficial, which it isnt when im talking about it).
SOCIAL stuff shall be next. hmm. well, ash kunde ilke hates us all and wants to move schools! umm my group is good, th ey are cool, and there are other peole such as briar and lauren that are cool also. i discovered good music people rachael and rhiannon, they have the best tatse in music and they are so very funny. out of school friends um...they are all good, they are the people i do stuff with on the weekends but somehow it works out that there are huge gaps between when i see them.that is really reallly gay considering i really love the people who dont go to my school. guys that i actually dont hate! wow! god, what a shock. i realise that as i dont explain like anything your probably wondering what the hell im going on about but im sure this is interesting to read if you happen to be as bored as i am right now.
oh hey my mp3 player is the best thing ever. ever! ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am obsessed soo much with it, lol. oh ok so today i went to "live and loud" (how similar to live and local i think its a pay out) and i was just going for butterfly effect and i saw some of hte other bands, melyodysee or however you spell it were amazingly great! BUT BUT BUT then tehre was like "electrical difficulty" and we were standing around for like 2 hours or smething hugely long like that and i was sooo bored and then um they coudlnt fix the problem so we (i went with damien, and some of his school friends were there but they rejected the situation like really soon unlike us who waited ages) just had to go. ah. talk about annoying, its like postponed or something but yeah i dont care as long as its not 5 june as thats the gym dance. im not excited about the gym dance :O wow, that truly is a first. AHHH. AHHH!!!!!!! BRAND NEW ARENT GOING TO BLINK 182 CONCERT ANYMORE. NOW IT IS SPARTA. KILL ME NOW!!!
this diary is so different to the one i actually write, lol, probably cuz i write in that one like every week. music is the best ever, i am obsessed. i have too much school stuff like so many exams soon but hey i cant be botehred to do anything for them at the present moment. ahahha i just read over like my first entry and stuff pff it is so GAY! how crazy. well than this sort of made me half unbored, but now that i have finished writing it i will go straight back to boredom. probably because no one will go on msn! my geekisness needs to be satisfied, people. ahh wells. goodbye
clare had a birthday party..she is now 17, i am rather sccared by the oldness of her. 17 doesnt seem that old any more though..maybe because she is that old and she doesnt seem like a big fat oldy to me! i dont know. i hae been shopping a lot, its quite enjoyable although now i have...about 40 lipglosses! no exaggeration! thats it, they're going in for the scan. GOING IN FOR THE SCAN I SAY! next entry i swear a photo of my excessive lipgloss amounts will be shown on my lovely site. ahhh anyway yeah her party was really fun, i like her friends they are cool! her evil boyfriend decided it would be fun to break up with her over sms, he sucks big time and i want to kill him. he seems pretty nice though! hmm how strange. i saw scary movie 3 and also school of rock. the first was suckful and did not live up to my so very high standards but the latter GREATLY EXCEEDED my low expectations! it was the best , or as some would say, "da bomb" . not me however as that saying really sucks!
My music taste has been greatly widened over the holidays also. i bought powderfinger's album vulture street, its quite good. blink 182s new album is actually fantastically awesome, and i love it greatly! GO OUT AND BUY IT I TELL YOU! they are having a concert on the 19th of march. frances will be attending this concert. i have also recently become "fond" of the fantastically talented bands muse, millencolin limp bizkit and AFI, all of which are good gooooood bands that satisfy my love for music!
by the way merry christmas to us all! i had a smashing christmas "chillin with the fam". i got the most awesome presents ever including the extremely cool belts and arm band things that i have been wanting forever, you know those studded ones? the big lovely square studs. yeah well i have them now, a few belts and a few arm things and today i bought some awesomely cool rings so now my accessories are all good! considering the amount of bracelets and earrings i got for my birthday as well.
now, onto some more interesting m atters! if only i had written in this before it could have been "suspenseful" for my regulars, but i suppose there are no regulars so really that would have little point...but yeah ANYWAY ! i have these 2 friends called nathan and nathan! one is nathan h and the other is nathan c. i have been friends with nathan h for aages, and he is very different to me...for example he smokes and i hate smoking!!!!!!!!!! and he has his nipples, ears, tounge and lip pierced as opposed to my...ears. and hes like skatey boy and i would never skate ever. might i add that he has become exceedingly hot! hahaha. he went out with phoebe h.. i have noo idea why that happened but ti was ages ago. his friend nathan i have only known for maybe a year but hes really cool, and once again is very different but we get on pretty well. he kept sending me smses that were really nice and saying all these really nice thigns to me which i at first though were just him being nice. all this changed last wednesday (the one before christmas). i went to th emovies with them and afterwards talked to nathan c on msn where he told me he liked me and asked if i would ever consider going out with him! this was quite a shock and although i liked him i thought i wouldnt say yes because it was over msn and i hated that. AND THEN on sunday night he sent me an sms saying that we didnt have to talk about the stuff he had said because someone wil always be there and ended his message just "from nay" instead of hte usual "love from nay"! i thought that this was a bit odd but ignored it and sent another sms back. he replied saying that we shoudl leave what he had said because we "couldnt do anything about it". i saw him the next day, and while i was visiting him and nathan these 2 other girls came to visit them, which i didnt really care about until later. i sent him an sms after asking if i was meant to forget everythign he had said, and he said yes. i was soo frustrated by this because i had spent so much time considering all the reasons why i would go out with him and telling myself it was a good idea, and of course feeling happpy that he liked me. it sucks, guys suck, every guy in the past year has screwed me aroudn in some way, except for my country bumpkin boy...damn him for liviing in the country! anyway, i sort of went mad on nay saying that he thought he had the right to tell me stuff and then expect me to forget it when something "better' came along (meaning the girl). he had the nerve after that to say that he thought i would n ever like him so he said i coudl forget about it. i sent him a huge sms back it was about 800 letters, apologising and explaining and telling him that of course i like him. i then spent the next, you know, 4 days writing him smses and being completely ignored until last night whne i was on msn and he was also. i was glad to hear he was not mad, but disgusted to know that i was right all along - he is now going out with one of the girls. ARGH. I AM SO ANNOYED! something about me attracts the most evil of situations when it concerns guys. one of my new years resolutions will be to STAY AWAY FROM GUYS WHO WILL HURT ME! far out. i basically dont trust any guys any more at all, which sort of sucks for me but hey at l east i probably wont get into any more of these situations! well im "off" to play online scrabble and eat my pie. its 1:02 am i am hoping my parents dont get up and find me cooking otherwise i am in deeeep trouble! lol bye
there is a concert on saturday night called 5 to midnight and i really want to go because it has grinspoon, magic dirt, butterfly effect and 1200 techniques and i love them all. however i doubt any of my friends would want to go and i dont really want to go by myself! im probably going to the beach on friday with damien and some of his friends and some of my friends. damien is staying there and invited his friends and me, and i had to invite some of my friends so taht it wasnt just me and them. one of his friends fully hates me, but he isnt going which im quite happy about! i hope that chris goes, me damien and chris have gone to the city a few times and it was pretty fun. i beat them both in pool when it was me against the two of them! go frances the skilled one. i also saw master and commander which was actually really good! i think that this entry was a whole lot more boring than any other entry before it so i think the next one will have to be extremely interesting!
yeah i went to phoebes mocktail party, ahhhh it was soo good! dad took photos so i can put them on at some stage (i am guessing when they get developed). it was probably the best thing i have been to all year, except some of the gym dances hold a pretty strong competition. it was probably up to their standard, but maybe not higher as that is basically impossible! it was better than the nudgee semi, and...well...its a semi! nothing is meant to be better! but it was, it suuure was. the mocktails were good, and everyone looked so awesome in the formal stuff! clare my sister made me a bright pink dress, and i had pink nailpolish and hair ribbon. it would have looked better with blonde hair, which i had up until a few weeks ago, and it sort of clashed with my red hair but i dont relaly think most people co ordinate their hair colour to their clothes. phoebe everingham, megan and me sort of shared damien, what a ladies man im sure he was hapy! megan was also sharing another guy, called matt (from marist) but she didnt talk to him at all. we tried to get rupert to come, becuase we love him, but he couldnt. (OR WOULDNT hmm yeah anyway!) there was also a random guy there, that we befriended. his name is rob he goes to grammar, he was awesomely cool i love people like him. i doubt we will ever see him again but still he was a bit of a loner boy and he made it enjoyable. i think i embarassed myself singing loudly to blink 182 and dancing like a freak to white stripes songs, but it was fun so...yeah...in the end as long as i entertained!
i love phoebe for having the party!!!
well anyway, i have a long weekened this weekend, so i shall be rejoicing while all others are forced to go to school.
there are only 2 distressing things that have occured, one is that although i have been going to the gym more than ever i have become fatter and i look rather "grotesque"! i must get the fatness away, i just dont know how. secondly my mum went to the movies with a large number of TEACHERS FROM MY SCHOOL, its a rather scary experience. that is probably all however! hmm i shall "update" perhpas next week or maybe during if something amazing happens.
i went shopping yesterday and bought quite a lot of things, it was rather fun. scarily enough i saw the creepy 4 year older guy there as he works as a trolley boy at that particular shopping place, but i was just about to leave so i didnt talk to him which was lucky. well anyway i have to go and wash my dog ping, then bath him, and then do all my homework - i have massive amounts.
Firstly, theres school. I'm currently in grade 10, and as its term 4 the constant reminders of how hard senior school is going to be are actually affecting me and im quite worried about what is to come. however, i am trying to put this to the back of my mind as i have much more important things to worry about, such as my year 10 certificate. im a crazy perfectionist at the minute, the nerdishness is showing through! my english teacher appears to have a severe disliking of me and basically told me that she doesnt think im capable of getting a VHA despite the fact im on one now! it annoys me immensely. apart from that however, things are going quite well.
Secondly, theres the prospect of social activity. Although this is only the first week back after event filled holidays my last social outing seems like a lifetime ago, even though it was only 7 or 8 days ago. all this is about to change however and i am going to a churchie dance tomorrow night! i hope that i meet a decent guy as my life has been lacking them - every guy i persue (even as a friend) seems to have major problems, and i am really getting sick of it. there are some normal ones which are the ones im still friends with but..yeah many have been severely rejected! i wish i had started this diary earlier so i could have included my strange, soap opera like story about this guy who was 4 years older than me and a huge mistake. ahh wells. one of my friends (pheobe) is having a birthday party next weekend that a partner is required for. i have some guy friends i wouldnt mind inviting, but i really want to have someone new and different. thats where the churchie dance comes into it - im hoping it will be filled with potentials who will be normal and i can take to the party! preferably good looking potentials to make all the other people jealous. hahaha that would be great. my friend megan sort of refuses to invite the most obvoius people, so shes definately in need of people from churchie. (churchie is a guy school by the way not some random catholic place) so tomorrow im going shoppping for a shirt and then going to the dance. im rahter excited, i love these dances. the last one wasnt that good, i danced with the one guy the whole time which was fine until later on after a couple of weeks when i realised he was completely self obsessed and in love with phoebe, and also looked about 11 instead of 15. he broke his leg in two places from riding on a scooter a few days ago - enough said.
Finally, i have come to some revelations about music. the band lo-tel are the most amazing thing i have ever come accross! their music relaxes me to an extent i never thought possible and it is as if i transported to another place when i listen to their music. hahaha how corny. i love heaps of music however, rock is usually my favourite but i am a "sucker" (ew gross word i hate it) for romantic songs haha. i reccomend lo-tel to anyone who likes ... sort of...i dont know how to describe it, its rather slow but.. great! argh! click here to go to their site you can listen to bits of their songs and maybe you can see how awesome they are! yay.
wow this was quite long. i hope you enjoyed it, i dont really see the point in this but yeah its quite fun!
