| Mindless babble at work This section witch I have come to call mindless babble at work is just stupid thoughts that have been going through my head when I am at work. Well hope you guys like. 6/11/02 I do not understand why my friends think that I need a guy to make me happy and complete. Now don�t get me wrong I want a guy. I just have not found any one that I care to invest in a relation ship with. The thing that I hate most is when a guy asks me what I am looking for in a guy. To answer this question truthfully I don�t know. It�s like most things in life with me. I just know that is person is the one that I want to get to now more. Now I will say this I got bicthed at the other day by some one on the net cause I told him that I would not get in a romantic relationship with anyone that was not the same race as me, basically I told him that I would only date white guys. I am getting tired of getting called everything from being a raciest to being lame. Now when I know people of other races other that white who believe and do the same thing I start to get pissed when this happens. This is just in realm I will befriends with anyone no matter what there race, color, creed, nationality, or what have you. There is some one that I like but for the life of me I can�t seem to tell him, that I do except in an email. I have not been able to call him and acutely put to words my feeling for him for fear that he will not feel the same, or reject me and pretty much never talk to me again. Since this has happens so many times before. It seems as of late that every time or just about every time I call he is ether not home or I leave a message and I get no call back from him. My friends tell me I should just give up and let this one slip away. But I am to pig headed, and really like this guy, and that no one else is knocking on my door so to speak. Besides the few times that I have gotten to chat with him on the phone or on the net, have been good. From what he has told me he has been very busy with school and work so he has not been home much. I know how that is all to well, so I am not to mad about that. I just wish I could get up the courage and just say hey look do you feel the same for me, or what have you. Cause I find myself thinking about him at least once or twice a week. But that�s enough on that for right now. To be continued�. |